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yipee!! attachment is finally over. lalalala. but im so damn tired. actually wanted to slp. but thinking i've not been online so many daes n kor n di oso not at hm. its my opportunity to use e com lo. so neva go slp. use n use. hahas. so pathetic man. aniwae, was so tired cos wed work aftnoon shift. den thurs morn shift. aft dat go back sch fer hi club. luckily it ended early n todae which is a fri i work morn oso lo. im dead beat. but so hapi. 3wks pass so fast. reali in a blink of an eye. its over!!

attachment learn lots of things. plus all e nagging frm dr june mak. all e lectures frm brother jeffery. wah. can die. n yes i oni got 75 marks fer my clinical tis tym lo. kind of disappointing la. but haiya, its over. n aft all attachment end does not means more leisure tym. which is so sux la. stil got 4 projects to work on. n our gp is lyk haven reali started on it. actuali i don even noe whn we r suppose to present ok. wad a failure man. *shake heads* plus nxt wk got full dress reharsal on mon n actual closing cum graduation ceremony on thurs. will b very very busy.

life is jux so short n fast. imagine. mon go back sch den i think oni 3-4wks of study n we wil haf our study break followed by exams *again lo. wad e hell man* den its attachment AGAIN. can u believe it. is so so so fast la. i need a break!

but aiya 4get it man. mus b contented. contentment is not e fulfillment of wad u wan, it is e realization of how much u already haf. so ya. guess its not a choice dat i can make.

come to think of it. we reali reali r very fortunate. everyone of us. in tis world dere r bound to b ppl less fortunate den u. when e door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at e closed door dat we don c e one which has been opened for us. so y not look on e brighter side of life isnt it?

It's true dat we dunno wad we haf got until we lose it, but it's also true dat we dunno wad we haf been missing until it arrives. dats y we gotta treasure wad we haf at present n not bear grudges.

e happiest of ppl don necessarily haf e best of everything; dey jux make e most of everything dat cum along their way. it doesnt mean dat u haf everything, u wil b happy. wad reali is happiness. its in u dat e ans lies.

e brightest future wil always be based on a forgotten past, you cant go on well in life until you let go of ur past failures and heartaches. hais. will i able to do dat? will tis ever b reflected on me? hopefully. im waiting fer dat dae to cum.

ok. so much of dose kind of chim-iology stuffs. hahas. aniwae i manage to resize e pics liao le. had such a hard tym. cant blame la. im a com ben dan. hahas. lyn. better w smaller pics? don make me delete la. i wan e pics to b up. wahahas. blehs. =p n oh yes. jux now whn i finish cancelling away e stuffs dats due on my calendar n wishlist, my entry r all cancelled i dunno y. so piss off eh. i make tis ok liao another wan got prob. wad e sia. lols.

nvm. i wil figure a way out. yea. dats life. u get jam haf way. u haf to find ur way thru. do or die. take it or leave it. had bad headaches recently. i dunno y. argh! hey. i wanted to type something but i suddenly 4get. shitty. wait til i rmb den i type.

oh yes. i rmb le. hahas. i wan to but new yr clothes!! lols. actuali i buy le. but hor. lyk neva had e intention of having dat fer new yr lehhs. lyk not appropriate. wanna haf something else. n whn i free, i too tight w my $. toopid huh. hais. now gotta wait fer me to haf $. but by e tym mayb new yr cum liao sia. hmms. mayb going buy tml. but im broke. gotta save!!

actuali im quite naggy oso lehhs. how many daes neva blog n i tok so much. hahas. ppl reading, done mind huh. let me sae all i wan. hahas. tho not everything i sae out n let out la. u noe. everyone got secrets dat no body noe. n of cos i wil haf oso ma. so ya.

ok. enuff of my craps. actuali i stil got more. but lazy le la. hehes. =)

i dunno i sign in n sign out how many tyms lo. hahas. but tis wil b my last post le. cos kor kor cuming back liao. he buying dinner back. n dunno wad e hell i doing sia. see this see dat. got project n case study to do oso neva do. haiyoyo. lazy dao. tml stil nid go sch fer hi club lo. tsk!

eee. dunno y e pic so big. dat tym xin teach me how make small but i 4get liao le. hur hur. help!!

was looking thru my folders. den saw e pics. den feel lyk posting up. hehes.
here it is. whn we r at jon's hse.



look at us. dunno doing wad lorrs. all diff pose. hahas.



i lyk tis pic. so cute. hees.



wah piangz. so act dao lo. bth. =x

den me n jie de. during her bdae bbq.



hug tight tight. treasure e tym together.



trying to b farnie w our crooked mouth. hehes.



ask me to kiss her stil gif me dat toopid look lorr she. hahas. nth her. but stil love her lots. =D



frenship + sistaship dat last.



look at e cake. wow! rite. so cute so big. whn isit my turn? n she make me lost my 1st kiss to her. hahas.



eating tibits at her aunty hse. hahas. smile dao so mian qiang lorrs.



xl dao bu ke yi lorrs we. hahas. so qian bian.



e shorties of bout e same height. hahas. jie n me plus her mama n her aunty.

okkies. enuff le i think. wait ppl think i sot. hahas. jux wan tis precious n joyful memories to b rmbed. tis r not oways present. mus treasure.

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever. and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said.
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldnt cry if you walked away. I'd die.

wah. cant even rmb whn was e last tym sit in front of e com. access online n blog sia. tym is so limited. i don haf enuff tym to use. I WAN MORE TYM!! hais. went sch todae initially fer hi club cos gonna do TOA (token of appreciation) fer our students. but b4 dat we go do project. neva ready got anything done. but at least something was done. not bad liao la. got rough idea how we going to do e thing le.

went our to club hse den dey alreadi leaving le lo. n oso no ppl cum. oni xin, lynette, shuyi, wm, ky n tim nia. plus cam, lyn n me la. but we went dere so nth to do le. continuing tml. den aft dat dy meeting her didi. so tot of going together. end up i didnt went. cos oso got nth to buy n oso no $ lorrs. plus quite tired. so didnt go. sorry gers. nxt tym den shop w u all ok.

recently, so much happen. i dunno how to put into words. hais. so sad. so scare. i see e whole thing. e whole preocess. frm dae 1. n now it is ... things r so sudden. tho its not happening to me. but i can feel it. life is reali so unpredictable. u can neva noe wads going to happen nxt. precious things don cum by easily. i've learnt how i shld treasure things ard me.

hope he wil feel ok. tho i noe its hard. but he's strong. if its me i think i will break down. i will i dunno. i will not b able to take it. so scary. i cried whn i recieve e msg. many things run thru my mind. my tears jux flow. even at e bus stop. kind of pai seh huh. i fear dat e same thing will happen. scenario is kind of similiar. im scare. so scare. dunno wad to do.

tho im betta todae. but e thing is stil in my mind. hais. i guess dats life.

i receive a msg frm a fren.
a long lost fren.
not reali long lost tho. he's a sec 1 fren of mine. whn i was in sec 1 he was in sec 3.
we often hang out together in a gp during recess n aft sch.
tho dey r older den me but in sec 1 i don reali haf much frens in my class.
dey were my frens. i feel hapi w dem. dey were a bunch of jokers.
we do things together. fer e prefectorial board.
soon, i changed sch. cos move hse.
i started to lost contact w dem.
however, tis guy, who was once my kor. did msg me frm tym to tym.
oni him n another guy whom i wasnt very close w kept in contact w me.
but last yr, e rest saw me at my work place.
we started keeping in contact. but not as much.
bout tis guy.
got once, he told me he didnt wan to b my kor anymore.
i fergot e reason. or dere isnt even a proper reason.
im dissappointed.
e dae b4. he msg me again.
saying something which i didnt expect him to sae.
i was shocked.
he asked a qns dat i posted in my previous entry.
i replied saeing dat he mus b joking.
but he was serious.
im confused.
all along i've treated him as a big bro.
n i tot he treated me as a younger sis too.
but..

define woo.
define jio.
ppl often ask can i woo u? can i jio u?
wad does it reali means?
to me, jio n woo doesnt haf to get an approval frm someone. its so wired whn tis qns is asked. qns r oni asked in form of can u b my stead or something lidat isnt it? if u haf to get a approval frm someone to chase a person, i think its kind of a failure huh?
n oso wad u expect e returned ans to b? yes? no? wad? oh yes pls start to chase me? omg. tis is so.. i dunno how to put into words. all in all its wired+wired+wired.

Some of the Best Moments in Life

* To fall in love.

* To laugh until it hurts your stomach.

* To go for a vacation to some pretty place.

* To listen to your favorite song in the radio.

* To go to bed and to listen while it rains outside.

* To leave the shower and find that the towel is warm.

* To clear your last exam.

* To receive a call from someone, you dont see a lot, but you want to.

* To find money in a pant that you haven't used since last year .

* To laugh at yourself looking at mirror, making faces.:)))

* Calls at midnight that last for hours.:))

* To laugh without a reason.

* To accidentally hear somebody say something good about you.

* To wake up and realize it is still possible to sleep! for a couple of hours.

* To hear a song that makes you remember a special person.

* To be part of a team.

* To watch the sunset from the hill top.

* To make new friends.

* To feel butterflies! in the stomach every time that you see that person.

* To pass time with your best friends.

* To see people that you like, feeling happy.

* To use a sweater of the person that you like and find that it still smells of their perfume.

* See an old friend again and to feel that the things have not changed.

* To take an evening walk along the beach.

* To have somebody tell you that he/she loves you.

* To laugh..laugh..and laugh..remembering stupid things done with stupid friends.

i received a e-mail frm ai wei. its bout horoscope. seperated into e diff horoscope n ger n guy. here's mine. black n red = wad i copied frm e email. red = e ones dat i think applies to me. purple = my opinions, wad i think.

FEMALE CAPRICORN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. *im definitely not one la. but quiet mayb yes ba.*

Once she is mad she can be very fierce. *yea. pretty true. don try me. hahas*

She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. *prob slighty beta den men but not reali dat confident ba.*

In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection. *woman can do lots of things de okies*

She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. *don reali lyk to show out ya.*

She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. *hmms. mayb i wil. but cant cfm. hope i can b lidat.*

If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will
completely ignore that person. *seldom criticize oni small chances wil bahhs - if reali bth la. but most prob wil ignore*

She hates plastic and an artificial flower because it makes her feel that you are not being sincere. *not reali tho*

She loves real flower and it's scent. *quite lyk oni but sometym think oso wil die leh. hahas. scent not quite sure.*

She loves guys who wear after shave cologne. *clean is oways beta den dirty.*

If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her. *1 mth lehhs. how to tahan.*

She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. *lyk but don reali listen.*

She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. *simple things is enuff to make me happy.*

She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. *not sure if im dat jealous. but u noe. limits pls.*

Better not to see her get mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face. *if its way beyong my means, den too bad la.*

She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter. *don reali lyk make up. quite casual but don lyk to b rush. dats definite.*

She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. *degree don matter. happiness is more impt. but of cos mus at least can afford to feed a family la.*

She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. *not reali smart. but character is darn impt.*

If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop. *not necessarily. i noe it takes tym.*

She does not like a dreamer who talks about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. * tok on no action den tok fer wad. rite?*

Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only. *oni do things dat u feel comfortable.*

She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty, do not take her there. *stil can take me dere la. don reali mind. but of cos if tidy its betta la.*

If you go out on a date with her, try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date. *who don wanna look presentable isnt it.*

She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. *mayb i will nag ba. hahas.*

She is a slow but sure type. *not sure if im sure lehhs but am slow la. i admit.*

She will always respect and honour you and will never try to make you lose your face. *depends on how serious e situation is actuali.*

If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. *will help in things dat im able to. im not superwoman. i cant do everything. but wil try my best.*

She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. *depends on who. lyk if ying gai to return wan den mus return la. if not normally wun expect in return.*

If she asks you for a favour and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. *yes. i will b disappointed orh. tho i wun show.*

She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing
in "Luck". *sometyms luck cums in place i think.*

If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking.
If your parents visit your house, they will be please. *dat i still cant assure*

She is a 3 in 1 means, a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could
say "happily ever after". *its too early to sae anything*

quite true lehhs. 4 some. hahas.

todae's fri. meaning. no more standing til my legs cant take it. no more waking up at 445 everydae. no more looking at case notes. no more taking of reports. no more clearing of BO n PU. no more lifting pt. no more running errands. wohoo. hapi lalalala. but tis is going to last fer oni 2 daes. 2 pathetic ones. but betta den nth la. mon starting work again. shift is being change. not same shift as serene liao. sian lorrs. dunno who to go eat w. nobody to tok to. as in reali tok any stuffs la. haiss. gotta learn to b independent bahhs. =)

so tired to do anything these few daes. slept at 6pm yest. so pig huh. hahas. didnt had my dinner oso. but dat doesnt reali matter la. im not a person who reali mind if dere's nth to eat. as in u noe some pppl don eat wil die cannot take it wan. hahas. im not dose kind la. don eat oso wu shuo wei. hehes. dats y im feeling not very tired todae. n kor kor is not back hm yet. a gud tym fer me to use e com. wahahas.

hmms. going down to ps tml. if dere's no class outing. i doubt dere's any. its too last min to haf one la. nth plan yet. going down to ps to get my clothes. a shirt dat i lyk e prints on it. hahas. its frm US if im not wrong. e material is damn gud. damn soft. comfortable huh. hahas. but not cheap lehhs. $25 fer 1 shirt. oso dunno y i buy. mayb jux cos of e words. but i fergot wad word le. whn i collect le n if i rmb den i post it up. hahas.

oh yes. i wan to sae jon. u noe. u can reali b a nusciance *dunno correct spelling anot eh. wait wendy sae me again. hahas* at tyms lehhs. cant stand u. hahas. tok at e rite tym la okies. tho i admit sometyms its my fault. but aft much tot. think we reali shld shut up in front of e pt ya. think dey can stand u. ok. us. hope we can work happily ar. if not i dunno how i going to tolerate u fer 6 yrs. tho nxt wk i wun b in e same cubicle as u. hahas. =p

yes. i said i wanted new yr resolutions. but as i noe n predicted. i didnt did as plan. so im going to do it now since im not tired n e com is avaliable. tho todae is oreadi e 6th but its stil not too late la huh. later den neva. =D so here it goes.

VERONICA'S 2006 RESOLUTIONS:

1. study real hard. pay attention! which means no toking during lectures n mayb tutorials *cos u noe. tutorials r meant fer us to 'dicuss' ma* hahas.

2. let nature take its course. as long as i think im doing e rite thing. *in terms of anything*

3. oways look on e bright side of life. take things easy. =D

4. no tibits any another dae. take gud care of my health. junk foods r oni to b taken once in a while = one a mth). oso means weight maintenance is impt. no more gaining of weight. *weight now is not to b reviewed* =p

5. argue less w ppl. esp if its dose dat i don reali lyk. relax myself 1st b4 i tok. tho tis stil hasnt happen in poly la.

6. provide sufficient tym fer study. don oways do last min stuffs.

7. don make staying out late outside a habit.

8. be more patience w everybody.

9. be appreciative n contented w wad i haf. don take things fer granted.

10. live life to e fullest.

think dats all bout it. 10 lehhs. oso dunno if im able to do it anot lorrs. hahas. yes! i can do can. i sae can means i can. hahas. =)

2nd dae of attachment. stil manage to blog. kor kor not at hm. hahas. he bought his gf hm todae. too bad i wasnt able to see. i reach hm he jiu send his gf hm le. den kor kor fren at our hse. raining jux now den kor kor fren go bus stop fetch me w umbrella. so sweet huh. hahas. lols. but too bad. not mine aniwae. his frens waiting to play mahjong ltr. think dey got addicted. had been playing mahjong all tis while. n dey r having exam tml. zhen shi pei fu dem lehhs. hahas.

todae. started w more communication w e pt. haiss. u noe. a young n healthy person can even get sick. n something as serious as renal failure. life is so full of unknown. its full of surprises. gud n bad. i saw a bone marrow biosopy todae. omg! whn e doctor gave e jab it was lyk pain lyk hell. poor pt. n whn e tube goes in to take e blood n tissues. ohh. ouch!! n e doctor mayb too used to it le. he lyk don feel pain fer e pt sia. mayb no choice oso la. but so ke lian.

in life, e worst thing to b is to fall ill. fer me i rather die i suppose. i cant stand e pain sia. see le oso scare. frm todae, i mus stay healthy! yea. =D

my very 1st of 2006!

1st place i went to: esplanade w camila. lyn. jm.

1st action in 2006: clenched my hands together n look up into e sky and stare admiringly at e fireworks.

1st illness: block nose. which is stil taking place now. damn. pray hard i wun fall sick. i don wanna make up fer attachment. hmms. i wun. im strong! hahas.

1st sms: received- sl - new yr msg
sent -sl - new yr msg
den my fone happily pronouced dead. hahas.

1st fren dat i greet hapi 2006: camila. aft seeing e fireworks. hahas.

most frquent thing i did whn 2006 starts: distribute poker cards. lols.

1st drink of 2006: mineral water dat cam kope frm her work place. =D

1st food of 2006: mac french fries frm ecp.

1st reject words: think u shld not waste tym on me ba. its impossible between us. sorry.

1st evil tots: lie to him dat i've got a bf. but hey. i didnt. its not gud to lie. esp whn its a starting of a new yr.

1st card game: poker - 1 to 99 (9,10,J,4)

1st video took: fireworks at e esplanade.

okies. i run out of ideas. hahas. actuali lazy to think oso. i wana eat n den go to slp liao. oink oink. hahas. =p

woo. attachment start liao le. tis tym its in a 6 bedded ward. den in medical n renal de. todae not much happen cos its orientation. den hor. wah. e bro tok alot sia. hahas. whole dae lorrs. luckily not very tired. or i think i wil fall aslp. hahas. but he quite gud la. learnt alot frm him.

tml start to go to cubicle le. hmms. went n see my pt todae fer awhile. hai hao. but all seems very tired mayb cos of dialysis. den not so happening oso. compared to e ward dat i was last in. dere lyk pt tok more n communicate more w us. so quite enjoyable. tis wan all lyk don reali luff de lehhs. abit scary. but mayb 1st dae ba. hope as e dae pass by, it will be betta ba.

wad i hate most bout attachment is mus wake up damn early lorrs. haf to report fer work b4 7pm. den frm hse to hos nid 1 hr plus a little bit more. so estimate 1 hr 15 min la. which means i mus leave my hse super early to probably take e 1st bus. which oso means i mus wake up at. hmms. 4.30am? hell man. argh!!

tis tym its lyk 15 ppl in 1 ward. which is alot. n kind of cramp. last tym its oni 4 students per shift nia. now 15 all cramed together. don reali lyk. too many ppl oso dunno wana do wad leh. sianx sia. den all morn shift. but dey thinking and considering in changing n spliting us into diff shift. so not so packed.

hope attachment will be fun n enjoyable. look on e bright side. =) i can make it thru e 3 wks de. kambateh!