3.21.2006
im so sad n freak off todae. i dunno y. haiss. probably tired.during work kind was so freak of w all e things in e hos la. things are lyk so dis-orientated n everything seems so out of place. was bathing e pt w daphne. den dat miss sara. kip cuming in n nag n nag. so freak off. aft dat dressing n NG tube. everything.
den pt refused med. i reported to e staff nurse. den she sae mus gif. don pt haf e rite to refused? i den told e AN dat e pt refused her medication but e staff nurse insisted dat i mus gif. den she told me she so clever so gif la. i was lyk wad e. den she threw e med away.
den ms sara! i don lyk her. some sae she's worst den june mak. y r we so suai? so many lecturers n we got 2 dat r e worst. damn. haiss. she jux nag n nag non stop. cant stand it. wads more she's lyk ordering us to do e procedure whereas e other lecturer, mary n sabrina dey helped dem thru ok. see e diff? haiss.
worst is i think she wil b e 1 grading our log book. she barely saw us fer a wk. how's she going to mark? predict? den i think i gonna do badly. n june mak is lyk away fer leave until our attachment ends. wads wrong w e sch? wads wrong w e system? don e plan? haiss.
4get it man. 3 more daes. i wil b able to go thru it. i can do it. i hope. daphne. sorry ar. if i've been kind of harsh w u todae. didnt mean it.
reach hm was so damn tired. slept. woke up eat liao den wash plates. aft dat told ah di i wanted to use com but he said he wanted to do hw. fine. i let him use. but he was dere playing his maple. not doing his work ok. ass! damn fed up.
den told him he's not even doing his hw. n said i will use til 9pm den gif him use. cos i wanna watch tv. den he said he wanted to watch tv oso. wtf. whn i was slping he don use. sae wan do hw i let him do but he played games. idiot.
i cried. i dunno y. dunno 4 wad. somehow jux feel so depressed n todae. life is neva fair. kind of hate my life rite now. rite at tis moment. =(