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life reali is short.
u reali neva noe wads gonna happen.

many who wans to die don die.
in fact its ppl who treasure their lifes so much dat lose their lifes.
life reali is saddening.

was browsing thru e newspaper todae.
a family of 4 went abroad.
mum in ICU.
eldest son in e hos.
youngest son dead.
how sad can dat b.

recently.
a ger of at dat tender age of ours.
died cos of cancer.
its reali sad.

who noes.
u may walk n fall.
die in ur slps.
arrrrr.
dats so scary.

inserted NG tube on cam todae.
it was a super scary process.
n e feeling is unbearable.
i think i die i oso wun wan to insert e NG tube.
may everyone b well.

was taking e train hm.
den dere's tis uncle.
in his prob 50s or 60s.

e row dat im sitting.
one whole stretch.
empty.
i was sitting near to e middle.
of a places dat uncle sit rite beside me.
whn e whole row is blank.
i can sense smth.
smth dats not gonna b very rite.

he asked me wads e tym.
i said i dunno.
wasnt wearing any watch.
n i didnt wan to take out my hp cos i dunno wads gonna happen.
den he started asking me if i was stil schooling.
i ignored him.
n he kept asking n asking.
so i jux nod my head.
aft which.
he cont.
asking wad sch i was from.
i was alreadi fustrated n ya scare.
i jux ignore him.
totally.

i looked away.
den his face was lyk almost rite in front of me all of a sudden la.
wth.
but i was determined to jux kip my mouth shut.
so ya.
think he got tired n he left.
prob to cheat on others naive gers.

mmmmm.
life reali can b scary n insecured.
u neva noe.
u reali neva noe.

was walking towards co-op todae.
den saw 2 sch mates.
one of dem suddenly announced dat she broke up w her bf.
me, cam n lyn was shocked.
stuned.
at lost of words.
dey haf been tgt for more than 2 yrs.
n i jux got e feeling dat dey r e ones dat can last.
but i was wrong.

another fren told me dat her bro oso broke up in a 2 yr plus relationship.
2 yrs.
wad does it all means?
is dere reali no true love?
no ever lasting love?
haissss.

sometyms i think its reali amazing to see old couples.
stil being so swit n lovely tgt.
holding hands along e street.
taking photos tgt.
at orchard.
in a neoprint shop.
how cool can dat b?

but of so many ppl.
how many can go to dat stage?
wil i b able to proceed to dat stage in my life?

life is indeed very tragic.

mayb we reali shld not take life so seriously.
find a tym to luff.
to enjoy.
cos u neva noe wads gonna happen.
laughter not oni add yrs to ur life but more life to ur yrs.

but things r oways easier said den done.
can things reali turn out dat way?

life is . . .

actuali life is reali very saddening.
seriously saddening.

eat too much wil die.
neva eat oso wil die.

lidat oso die.
lyk tis oso wil haf illness.
life is reali so fragile.
u neva noe it whn tml neva cums.
it may jux b e next sec.
next min.
nxt hr.
next dae.
next wk.
next mth.
next yr.
next decade.

okayys.
im jux crapping.
im so tired can.

make up lessons on wed.
10am to 4pm.
becum 8am to 6pm.
oh.
wth.
i nid e num 8th dae badly.

SPSS sux lyk mad.
dunno how to use dat idiotic program la.
make us so pek chek.
do so long but stil stuck at dat qns.
stil got assignment fer NR not completed yet.

fall aslp in NSL lesson todae lo.
den slept on e bed oso. =x
luckily cher was gud enuff.
she said if we don wanna practice its ok.
as long as we pass our practs.
so gud la.

wah piangs.
nsl lesson.
fiona is alreadi very entertaining enuff le.
w her jokes.
her essences.
her very very gud voccals.

den todae chermaine.
haiyos.
she's reali a joker man.
can reali act.
n she's lyk so zhen ding la.
luff til my jaws oso tired la.
n everyone was so surprised at wad she did.
she jux doesnt haf e joker look.
so farnie la.

shedule is so tight.
im going crazy.
common test n 6 daes tym.
6!!!

dr thomas oso finds dat me n cam tok very loud.
ok. not oni dr thomas.
lyn, dy, jon, shu xian. fiona, rui fang haf e same tots.
hmms.
reali meh?
i don reali think so leh.
hai hao ma.
i hear other ppl tok oso dat vol wan leh.
hurs!
i wil try to tok softer. =)
i oni said i try.
im stil e veronica aft all.

yest went out w jie.
i reali miss those quality tym we had tgt.
thinking back its so farnie how we actuali knew each other.
how we dislike each other in e past.
n how we reali r now.

she's e oni 1 dat i've cried fer.
as in ger fren.
im oso e oni 1 dat she cried fer.
dats how strong our frendship is.
i treasure every single moment.
reali do.

we may not haf tym fer each other.
but our hearts r connected.
as one.
our frendship wil last.
hand in hand til we grow old.
dats our promise.

i bought jacket.
n i love dat jacket. =p
a white skirt.
$17. $15. $13. $18. $18.
omg la!
so xing tong.
jie wil noe wad i mean.
hahas.
n 2 belts.
im broke.
totally.
but i stil wanna shop.
lols!

i love dat spot at bugis.
our take pics spot.
hahas.
dats e place ware ppl often mistake us as les i think.
urmms.
haa.
but who cares.
dey oni see us fer dat dae.
n dats it.
lyk it anot.
its their prob.
lalalalas`

wanna mit up again real soon.
aft my exams perhaps.

exams is such a !!!!!
i can b 90% sure dat im not gonna do well fer tis common test.
haissssssssss.

went sentosa todae.
w him, amy, hui shan n dennis.
dey doing project on tourist attraction.
strength, weakness, etc.
dennis n shan did e sky tower.
den e 3 of us went fort siloso.

dere got taman negara de feelings lo.
climb high high.
TM is slopes.
dere is stairs.
dere r even bridge.
a very small one.
i miss e wan back at TM.
den see all e history things.
took pics.
pretty enjoy e journey.
e tedious but fulfilling journey.

jux completed my renal box.
n ya.
i haven even study fer my cardio test.
im declared brain dead.
don wanna do any more work.
cant take it anymore.

sometyms i jux feel so wrong.
feel so strange.
feel so weird.

sometyms things r very contradicting.
i makes ppl lyk b goes blur.
speechless.
totsless.

i feel so empty.
dere r so much dat i wan to do.
but tym is running out.
dere r so much dat i wan to sae.
but sometyms im not given dat chance.
wad i said might not b heard.
probably dat explains my voice la.
i wanna b heard.

perfection.
wonderful lives.
living up to expectations.
who don wan?
at least i wan.
but i realise.
its so tiring.
too tiring.

e passion is gone.
e strength is gone.
e fighting spirit is gone.
everything.
all gone.

pls feed me w energizer batteries.
i nid more.
im dying.
flat.

BIG headaches.
n i hate it.

pharma lesson was such a drag todae.
think dere's something wrong w e cher.
she's so diff todae.
her usual gan cheong spirit gone.
she even joke w us todae.
diaos.

but her lesson.
shld end at 4pm de lo.
den 445pm den we were released.
cos tok bout common test tips.
no choice.
lols!

aft dat went to mit gen.
she got alot to sae.
but it think she's very rite oso la.
we reali nid more communication.
everything is so in a mess.

am very stress up n irritated by everything la.
arghs!
sorry ppl if i haf ever been nasty to u over e past few days or even weeks.

reach hm oni at 8plus.
had a fast dinner.
den jiu start doing my soa.
got 4 events to update lo.
sot de.
jux finish doing.
think slping soon.
shag.

i nid more hrs/dae.
more slps.
more tym fer other stuffs.
more happy daes.
more not stress daes.
=(

go hm early.

imagine.
start visualising.

a gp of teenage.
in a bus dats so packed w ppl.
their voice filled e whole bus.
living in their world.
toking so loudly.
bout anything everything.

until a small ger.
ard e age of kindergarden or pri sch.
turn over to her mum with hands covering her ears.
"mummy hen cao leh" (very noisy)
e looks on her face.
looking so irritated.

until ppl who sits behind dat gp of teenage.
kept secretly luffing u shld cal dat giggling at wad dey sae.
looking at dem.
tou ting-ing wad dey sae.

if it was u.
rite dere in e bus as well.
how wil u feel?
irritated?
or entertained?
by their u can choose to cal it errr
rubbish/jokes/wadeva u wan it to b.

i think if im in a foul mood.
i wil b damn pissed off.
damn irritated.
thinking bus alreadi so many ppl.
n so squeesy le.
stil make so much noise.
to e extend dat e entire is filled w their loud voice.

but if im in a gud mood.
mayb i wil b kind of enteratined by wad dey sae.
feel e kind of cheerie in dem.

HAHAHA.

noe wad.
dat gp of teenagers is US.
yes. us.

tai camila
tan wee ting pearlyn
ong hui qi wendy
toh zi xiang jonathan
n of cos me myself.
teh mun ping veronica

worst stil ah kor is in e same bus as us.
which i myself we didnt noe.
whn we alight the bus.
beep bepp.
msg received.
"e whole bus u all de noise lo"
haa.
dats wad i received frm kor.
tis goes to show how LOUD we reali r.

n whn i noe e guy sitting behing lyn was secretly luffing at us.
i signed to dem.
den lyn huh.
wah piangs.
sae out damn loud.
"oh. dat guy behind me luffing at wad we sae ar!"
n she's not e type we tok very loud in nature u noe.
she did it purposely de lo.

eee.
we very fan jian leh.
haiyos.

whn u r in e process.
u r reali in ur world.
but if u e wan listening.
it can b reali irritating.

omg.
r we irritating?
wil ppl dislike us fer dat?

was taking e lift todae.
den dere's tis gp of gers toking n luffing lyk mad.
n i tot dey were a bunch of crazy ppl.
n was abit pissed.

but cum to think of it.
we r oso lidat wan leh.
wil ppl b pissed lyk how i am pissed?
oh oh oh.
but ok.
who cares.
do wad we wan.
do wad we think is rite. =)

bad headaches i've got.
suspected diagnosis.
brain tumor?
lols!
choys!!!

n cam's renal failure.
lyn's breast cancer i 4got wads e word. =p
-_-"
reali feel lyk dying leh.
entire body system not functioning well.
so useless huh?
hais.

was suppose to mit gen todae.
to discuss bout closing proposal.
wilson msg her to cfm e meeting.
n she said ok.
n todae.
whn we went to look fer her.
dey said she was on leave.
wth.
put our aeroplane.
how irresponsible.

lyn.
u shld of waited fer me lo.
in e end i went hm alone lo.
tsk!

den hor.
i kok my head in e train.
n i nearly fell on my way to e interchange.
think my brain is not functioning well enuff.
n mayb eyesights r worsening.
getting old.
lols!
slept n wake up.
but stil w dat sickening headache.
cant it go away?
its bugging me lyk crazy.
shoo!

had meeting in national lib todae.
closing ceremony stuffs.
n new updates.
n great.
im e asst in charge fer closing ceremony.
wilson's e in charge.
its a BIG event.

yes.
we gonna make it a success.
a better one.
one dat ppl got nth bad to sae bout.
we wil.
no matter wad.
gonna prove ourselves.
wilson.
lets jiaoyu tgt. =)

aft dat went arcade.
dar wanted ting hui to catch soft toys fer her.
but tis tym round its so diff.
guess we were reali lucky dat tym.
catch 4 somemore.
dar.
bu yao sad ok.
u stil got mao mao.
=p

aft dat went pastamania to eat.
see dem eat.
cos don reali lyk pasta.
n oso waiting fer my boi to cum n mit me.
slow tortise.
bleh.

den pei tim go buy present fer his fren.
he wanted to buy chicken little.
but don even noe how it looks lyk lo.
omg!
hahas.
end up he bought a earring n necklace fer her.
n its kinda x.
nvm.
tim's a rich guy.
hor tim?
hehes.

den my boi finali came.
so went to mit him.
den we go had our brunch.

aft dat go find jie n tok to her.
den june jie oso working dere lo.
so long no see her liao le.
kinda miss those daes.
reali mus mit up sometym.

amy n her gal came.
den we went to haf steamboat.
e usual one dat we haf alot of ppl.
so decided to try a new wan.

e food dere not bad.
stil got free flow of drinks.
desert - mango pudding.
but quite x leh.
$19+ per person.
almost 20bucks.
but was so full la.

dat toopid boi's fault.
oways ask us go eat steamboat.
ownself eat liao wun fat.
stil wan hai us grow fat.
hurs!
if i gain weight its ur fault. =p

den whn to take prints again.
hoho.
actuali wan 4 take tgt de.
but amy n her ger neva take b4 alone.
so let dem take. =)

aft dat lok wei waited fer me to go n find him.
at uncle lim's shop.
den tok awhile jiu leave le.
cos amy's ger rushing fer tym i think.

felt abit bad la.
cos lok wei waited so long.
den i so fast jiu leave liao le.
but aniwae he waiting fer his fren to finish work den go hm tgt oso ma.
so not dat bad la huh.
hahas.

aft dat jiu take train hm le.
cos kinda late liao.
n tml got sch.

8-6pm.
long dae.
sux.

dere isnt any hw fer e weekend.
dere isnt any project as well.
its so unbelievable.

feel so bu zhi zai leh.
cos fer e past 3 wks.
hws.
test.
projects.
everything piling up.
n weekends r lyk no weekends.
but tis weekend.
i don even noe wad to do.
feeling so bored.

sot de.
busy oso complain.
nth to do oso complain.
hahas.

was fliping thru all e childhood fotos.
some r reali farnie.
e faces.
e expressions.
e craziness.
reali missed childhood life.
so carefree.
i wanna stay young fereva.
don wanna grow up.
=/

sometimes its better not to grow up.
some things r better not to be known.

but how wil life b if we live everydae aimlessly?
how wuld life b if u look 4ward to nth?
the future holds unknown.
do wad u can now.
grab wad u wan.
don let it slip by.
chances r not oways dere fer u.

i reali hate taking transport whn its past 6pm.
e huge num of ppl piss me off lo.
tsk!

take bus so many ppl.
take train oso so many ppl.
n e ppl is can squeeze jiu squeeze wan lo.
WAH PIANG.
think dey very small size ar.

n dere's tis one gp of sec sch students.
boarding e train aft me.
e were squeezing in n making SO much noise.
its so unappealing to e ear.
make me kind of irritated.

mayb i was lidat in e past.
hurting ppl's ear w my voice.
hafing retribution now?
hahaha.

n out of 5 sch daes.
dere r 3 daes whn my lesson end at 6pm.
which means more of tis kind of situation.
arghs!

its fri again.
4th wk since sch started.
exams r lyk less than 3 wks away.
ahh.
don tok bout dat.

sun stil got meeting.
n mon stil needa go n c gen bout proprosal stuffs i think.
bank book name stil not settled yet.
im going bonkers!

dar.
xin.
prawnie n satay.
u 2 do think too much le ya.
don angry.
not worth it la.
im spreading u 2 FENG DIAN'S contagious luffter.
hohoho.
hahahahahahahaha~
=D

todae's e 1st tym i attend e 5-6pm lecture.
yes.
u didnt see wrongly.
FIRST tym.
since sch started.

i reali dunno how am i going to survive thru my yr 2.
i think i gonna flunk.
gonna do badly.
gonna fail all my modules.
gonna b kick out of sch.
gonna b asked by NUH to cancel my bond.
gonna end my life.
so dat i don haf to pay e $ if e bond is broke.

am i dreaming?
haa.
if all those r gonna happen.
i think its reali reali THE END.

test.
more test.
even more test.
n i hate it.
to e max.

my mind is not on studies.
but dunno on wad.
probably jux day dreaming.
dreaming of e impossible.
dreaming of hafing a relax life.
dreaming of a no test, no exams, no hw, no assignment dae.
*veronica u gotta stop dreaming.
wake up!

dumb.
dumber.
dumbest.
r dere such words?
errrrrr.

i pon lecture again.
hais.
how contaminated can my mind be?
very i guess.

i reali dunno how in e hell am i going to pass my modules.
common test is lyk starting on 5 june.
not counting todae.
not counting 5 june.
its 18 daes away.
oh my.
18?!
great.

n im so restless.
no mood fer study.
don feel lyk doing anything.
jux wan to STONE til i die.
lols!

i nid assurance not insecurity.
pls assure me.
n not reverse everything.
making me feel lyk.
i reali dunno wad.
properbly a fool?
its jux so insercured.

=( haisssss.

i feel tired.
so lethargic.
so restless.

tired in e mind.
tired along e limbs.
physically.
mentally.

i feel pain.
pain in e head frm i dunno wad.
pain in e neck frm e heavy bag i guess.
pain in e back frm probably poor body mechanics.

yest nite.
was hafing dat burning sensation at my forehead.
coldness in e limbs.
had slight pain in e throat jux now.

don feel lyk eating.
no appetite.
not even porridge.
n i feel full.

wads tis?
signs n symptoms of nearing DEATH?
great.
HA-HA-HA.
awaiting.

(^_^)

im so tired.
human r reali very fan jian lo.
so tired stil don wan go slp.
stil wan cum online.
cant stand it.

but im stil here. =)

anw.
yest.
14.05.06
it was our 3rd mth.
it was mother's dae.
it was my godma's son (which means my godbro's wedding dinner).

e wedding dinner was reali superb.
its not e food dat i lyk.
tho it wasnt dat bad la.
its e atmosphere.
all e lightings.
e spotlights.
e candle on each table.
e deco of e ballroom.
its so grand.
its so WOW.


e bride n bridegroom making their grand entrance into e ballroom.

i think e past wedding dinner dat i went to is not lidat.
i kind of love tis wan.
raffles place.
lvl 4.
pandang ballroom.
38 tables.
think mus reali cost a bomb.

i reali love their wedding pics.
its so nice.
so lovely.
so swit.
if i haf a chance to get marry.
i wil wan to take tons n tons of pics.
luff n smile until my cheek goes sore.
hahas. =D


one of their wedding pics.

ok. whn i reach dere.
it was lyk.
wads ur age now?
wah so big liao ar.
yue da yue mei liao hor. (e older u grow e prettier u r)
u very pretty todae.
got bf anot?
ok.
full stop.

til den.
i reali see e dist between me n my godparents n their family.
whn i was young.
im looked aft by a nanny.
until whn my mama wanted to let me go back hm.
nanny very she bu de.
den ask marmie let me b her god daughter.
n its real de.
meaning got pray pray all those wan.
not lyk ppl jux sae sae b god bro/sis/daughter/son or wad-so-eva.
so tis is how my godparents came bout.


me n gan mummy. =)


me n gan papa. i look so short beside him. =/

im so clueless.
not my own choice.
but dere's no doubt dey treat me real gud.
im real chubby whn i was a kid. =)

used to go over to gan mummy place even whn i was in pri sch.
love e daes dere.
e daes whn i hang up til late in e nite.
w gan mummy's grandchildren.
whose lyk 2, 4 n 5 years younger my age.
e 4 of us.
often play lyk dere's no tml.

asking me to go over to her place now is kind of weird.
i dunno.
mayb too long neva go.
n now so big le.
yes. big!
which means dey r growing old.

n cum to think of it.
gan mummy babysits so many kids.
but im e oni wan dat she n gan papa acknoledge as their god daughter.
how lucky can i b?
how blissful can my life b?
veronica. u better treasure life n don cum to regret.

during e dinner.
my boi miss cal me.
so i called back.

den he was lyk
asking e usual stuffs.
if i haf eaten n so on.
den kept insisting dat he cant hear me.
cos very noisy.
ask me go out of e ballroom to tok to him.
was watching video at dat point of tym.
reali didnt wan to go out.
but he said he got smth impt to tel me.
bout me n him.
mind wasnt reali thinking at dat pt of tym.
oni wan to hear e impt thing dat he haf to sae.
so i went out.

whn we were over e fone.
he stil ask e same old stuffs.
general qns.
until whn he ask if i was wearing a black dress.
i started to get suspicious.
ask ware he was.
he told me which direction to walk towards.
n dere he was.

reali surprised.
in e 1st place i neva even tot dat he wil cum.
cos he was complaining of undone hw n projects.
but dere he was.

den saw god sis (god mummy de daughter) lo.
she ask if he was my bf.
of cos i said yes. =)
den kept asking him to go in.
luckily boi acted fast.
said his papa was waiting downstairs fer him.
hahas.
i didnt noe wad to sae la.

n dat wasnt all.
he came w a lovely boquet of 3some chocs.
im so touched. >.<


my boquet of 3some chocs. =)


took using his fone.


me w my 3some chocs.


he looks so xiao boi boi w his specs. hoho. but cute rite? hehes.

it all meant to b a surprise.
n yea.
u succeeded.
i was truely surprised.
was reali happy.
i felt ur love.
ur effort.
at dat moment feel dat im e happiest one on earth.
kind of silly huh?
hahas.
but i seriously felt dat.
((:

on e way back hm.
holding e boquet.
actuali felt abit pai seh.
but cum to realise.
stil quite proud to hold it.
n let everyone see it.
hehes.

ok. mother's dae.
didnt celebrate cos got wedding to attend.
gift?
mummy bought 2 pair of shoes fer herself.
n ask me kor n di to pay her lo.
as mother's dae gift.
hahas.
wad a weird mother.
so self service huh.
lalalas~


smallest god sis de son. turning 3 yrs old soon. he's so cute. can reali tok lo he.


one of e kid gan mummy babysit. he claims to b an eng man. hahas. so cute.


dats me. marmie no skill la. cant even see my face.


me zhilian-ing. =p


me n daddie. =)


me n ah di. =)


me n marmie. =)

a dae of hard work.

im such a gud ger today lehhhhh.
hahas.
had my sleep til ard 1pm in e afternoon.
den woke up.
pig huh?
hehes. =x

on my com n started doing my hw.
started w e project.
cos nid to send everyone so dey can see it b4 e presentaion on mon.
n make changes if dere's a nid to.

den did my work until i reali sians.
aft dinner have been slacking.
doing other stuffs instead of hw. =x
but alreadi very guai liao lo.
hahas.

jux completed it.
felt darn proud of myself.
tho dunno if its correct.
but its my own work.
veronica's work.
wrong oso not a prob.
cos i put in effort ok.
n oso im so determine to complete it todae lo.
he sae can go buy 4D.
sure strike.
cos so unlike me.
hahas.

tml wil b a day of dressing up.
cant wait.
wear nice nice. =)

3 mths le.
full of ups n downs.
but we stil made it.
cheerios`

hectic life.

met cam in such a rush.
recieve her msg.
ask me pei her buy thing.
den faster bath liao jiu go mit her le.

den we waiting fer our bfs.
nowadays ar.
guys reali very slow sia.
slower den gers.
all so ai mei lo.
nid take so long to get ready to go out.
haiyos.
hahas.

aft dat we went seperate ways.
me n my boi went far east n eat.
den went to take prints. =)

den headed to marina to mit amy, hui shan n dennis.
played car racing.
im last lo.
aft dat we went bowling.
im again e last eh.
so sad can.
oni got lyk 24 marks?
how pathetic.
so many eggs.
lols!
i think i sux alot at games la.
hahas.

den we went tiong bahru to buy ingredients.
going hui shan's hse to cook dinner.
so cool.
den shu lay came n mit us oso.

didnt reali do anything lo.
cos its lyk all of dem learn basic stuffs of cooking in their course.
den i noe nuts la.
jux stood dere n watch.
felt so useless.
mayb i can help if anyone cut their finger.
hahas. =x

actuali dennis is e wan doing all e cooking.
guys nowades can take over gers in e kitchen liao.
u see e way u cook.
so pro ehs.
hahas.
i stil believe dat we gers stil wil haf our uses de. =)

cook quite long.
cos nid to cook e share of 9 ppl.
6 of us plus hui shan's grandparents n aunty.
all i did was eat.
n ya.
i help to wash up a little aft everything.

dishes:
1. sweet n sour fish.
2. gong bao ji ding. i dunno wads dat in eng la.
3. egg w prawn. or mayb u call dat shrimp. haa.
4. brocoli n mushroom.
5. sotong w sambal chili.
6. vegs. dunno wad veg is dat. vegs not my fren. =p
7. soup w carrot, potato n corn.


look delicious huh? hehes.

e food was nice.
admire dennis fer his cooking skills sia.
whn can i b able to cook all those?
haa.
i think neva.
mayb wait fer ppl to cook fer me la huh?
hehes.

we finish all e food lo.
dennis n amy had 2 bowl of rice.
shu lay, hui shan n me had 1 bowl.
n he lyk ate 4 or 5 bowl of rice?
omg.
wad a pig.
eat so much stil so skinny.
life jux isnt fair.
hurs!
lalalala~

aft dat he send me to mrt.
everyone except me staying overnite at hui shan's hse.
how i wish i can stay oso.
but i cant.
hurs!
stayover at fren's hse mus b real fun.
whn can i get to do dat?
am waiting.

thnks fer wad u gave me.
i wil hug it tight w me everynite. =D
urs is stil w me.
noe u gonna b disappointed
but no choice.
i haf my reasons.
but aiya complicated la.
betta not to noe.
sorry la hor.

com can b a sucky thing in life.
it makes one fustrated.
makes one addicted.
makes one haf MISUNDERSTANDING.

whn can life ever b simplier?
so complicated fer wad?
tsk!

im real tired.
jux now wanted to do hw whn i reach hm wan lo.
den fall aslp.
hurrrr.

woke up to complete it.
do fer more den 1 n a half hr lo.
sot de.
im reali going crazy.

plans.
tml: pon 5-6pm de lecture.
den can leave at 4pm.
hanging out w cam, lyn, dy n mayb jon?
haa.
wan pon lesson oso plan properly liao lo.
dunno how in e hell we can pass sia.

fri: meeting him.

sat: stay at hm to do hw n project.
nss - 950 to 1000 words on rheumatoid arthritis (nursing care plan).
pharma - tutorial qns choose 1 out of 4.
nss project im suppose to consolidate all e info given by my gp members.
hur!

sun: attending wedding dinner.

taking bout pharma.
i think my life wil be shorten everytym i attend pharma lecture lo.
reali gif dat lecturer qi dao yao si.
bless me w long lifes.

life is sooo busy.

tis real complicated big big world is far too diff fer tis small little tiny brain of mine to understand.
i gif up.
to stop thinking.
stop thinking bout wads going to happen.
stop broading bout everything.
everything under e sun.
shall jux kip my mind shut.
frm all those stuffs.
life stil continues as it is.

veronica.
veronica.
veronica.
lalalala.

life's reali busy.
haven been blogging fer quite some tym ehs.
yr 2 life sux to e max.
all i think bout now is
hmwks.
test.
projects.
all e datelines.
i seriously nid a place in woodbridge.
permanently.

todae's e 1st tym since e start of e yr dat i step out of e sch so early can.
2plus pm.
n its e earliest.
can u believe it.
ahh.
jux let me nag.
let me rant.
let me complain.

don lyk tests.
don lyk projects.
don lyk hmwks.
don wan my brain cells to die.
seriously nid dem fer betta stuffs.
hurs!

i slept in lecture todae.
felt soooooo guilty.
e last tym i did tis unhealthy act was lyk in yr1 sem1.
dats y my result was deep down in e drain.
haa.
didnt wan to slp in lecture de.
but dunno y.
cant take it.
reali damn tired.
tho i didnt slept very late last nite.
body system wanted to shut down.
*excuses la veron*
ehs. excuses!
no more slping.
promise.

woke up w headache.
so restless.
neva had lunch.
look at cam lyn n jon eat.
was too lazy to move.
lazt to eat.
lazy to drink.
lazy to chew.
lazy to do anything.
jux wan to close my eyes.
or jux stone dere.

aft sch sot de.
so tired stil don feel lyk going hm lo.
1 person go walk jp.
went popular.
royal sporting hse.
gift a name.
77 street.
wallet shop.
fiesta.
guardian.
watson.
think im mad.
n i oni reach hm at 440pm.
whn im release at 230pm i think.
which means i was alone in jp fer lyk 1hr plus minus.
sot sot sot.

in e end oni bought a file.
which is not e 1 dat i intend to buy.
lols!
n 3 sushi.
crab stick.
corn.
prawn.

actuali wan buy shampoo n conditionder de.
but den.
thinking its lyk too heavy fer me to carry.
all alone.
so decided mayb i shld get some help.
den go buy.
hahas.

wanted to eat e sushi in e bus.
den got soya sauce ma.
took e sushi out of e box.
den hor.
my sushi drop leh.
haven open la.
but i cant find my sushi lo.
think drop in front.
but got tis aunty sitting in front of me.
very pai seh la.
tot whn going down e bus can take my sushi.
but hor.
e aunty neva alight leh.
so dere goes my sushi.
sobs.

tym fer bed.
mayb i shld stare at my NR book.
n complete my hmwks.

i hate life as it is now.
i hate to hear things dat i don wish to hear.
i hate stress.
i hate e no assurance tyms.
i hate e useless me.
i hate to think.
i hate to arrive at no conclusion.
i hate e not at all brave me.
i hate dat kind of hopeless + helpless feeling.
i hate hiding my sadness beneath my smiles.
i hate analysing things.
i hate making decisions.
i hate slpless nites.
i hate pretending dat im ok.
i hate knowing e thruth.
i hate being dump aside.
i hate envying others.
i hate being accused.
i hate being neglected.
i hate uncertainity.
i hate acting dat im all strong on e outside.
i hate not being able to understand certain things.
i hate it as e yrs pass by.
i hate being a grown-up.
i hate e toopid childish me.
i hate saeing out my feelings.
i hate myself being so freaking dumb.

a piece of useless rubbish.
dump in dat unknown corner.
jux ignore me.
leave my alone.
to rot.
fer e rest of my life.