6.24.2006
i feel so isolated.so unwanted.
by e world.
by ppl ard me.
my 'frens'.
my 'family'.
'u'.
r dey reali all mine?
i feel so lost in tis world.
lost in my own world.
i dunno wads going on.
but tis feeling is becuming stronger as daes goes by.
wad happen?
i reali wan to noe.
wan so much to noe.
ppl r all meeting bf, gf, frens.
w happening lifes.
w happy lifes.
but me?
home alone.
eat alone.
hoping to go hm.
to at least haf my dog to acc me.
fer me to hug.
fer me to tok to.
but even my dog left me alone.
all alone to fend fer myself.
ya.
i admit.
sometimes its me isolating myself frm u all.
but its dat kind of unwanted-ness.
dat makes me take action.
its beta fer me to back out rather dan u all taking e action.
don cum n tel me.
u'll b dere fer me.
im not alone.
ahhh.
i heard enuff.
all tis r jus plain comforting words.
i dunno wads my motivation.
wads my meaning for living.
i see no life in my life.
mayb im reali all alone.
totally alone.
but at least i stil believe.
believe dat i haf myself.
my soul.
to last me thru out my daes ahead.