6.29.2006
it makes me wonder.nursing.
is dat wad i reali wan to b fer e rest of my life?
even if so.
am i fit to b one?
asked ms mary to sign my log book todae.
she was going thru e skills.
asking me bout e physical examnination thing.
all e theory stuffs.
60-70% of e medical terms dat she asked.
i culd not ans.
i felt so lousy.
wad haf i been doing all tis while?
i suck at all tis terminology.
im alreadi yr2.
but i feel dat i noe nth.
did my 1st oral med todae.
don even noe e abbreviation fer serving medications.
ya.
i noe.
its my 1st tym.
but its alreadi tot in e sch.
isnt it?
wad haf i been doing fer e past 1yr plus?
somehow i doubt.
doubt my ability.
in handling life n death.
am i up to it?
but i don haf a choice.
not one now.
not until 5yrs frm now.
cos im bonded.
yes.
BONDED.
3 bloody hell yrs of bonding.
perhaphs regretments