7.31.2006
NR project stil not done yet.euthanasia.
euthanasia.
its making me yearn fer it.
hahas.
madness.
my hand jus wun wan to go over to e mouse.
n move e cursor over to e mircosoftword n start doing wad i nid to do.
e cursor jus wans to stay far far away frm it.
oh well.
i shall do it soon.
n i mean real soon.
tho its kind of lyk
i somehow believes dat whn a person wans to share smth w u.
he/she wil do it w/o any promting.
w/o me having to ask anything.
if those r needed.
den e person might not wan u to noe.
might not b willing to let u noe even if he/she saes it in e end.
in those cases.
i prefer not to noe.
i prefer to jus shut my ears up.
n live in my own world.
its reali amazing at how 1 can actuali tok bout anything under e sun w 1 person on msn or thru msg.
but whn it cums to having to tok face to face.
or mayb jus over e fone.
things turn out differently.
u not feel as confident anymore.
u don feel dat sense of assure-ness in u anymore.
no more.
all gone.
NSL lesson is noe changed to BCLS lessons.
n tml's BCLS lesson is changed frm 8-10am to 3-5pm.
n NR is lyk frm 10am-12pm.
n break is frm 12-1pm.
so most prob going to sch oni at 1pm.
cos NR is lyk ultra boring.
n NR paper is alreadi taken.
oni left w projects fer e term.
so wad fer?
but.
ok.
wadeva.
being able to wake up late.
means i wun b able to end sch early.
tis is so . . .
u get smth.
u got to gif smth back in return.
dats wad life is all bout.
i think somehow im too sensitive.
or mayb its e person involve.
he/she may mean too much.
too much dat every single thing dey do or sae affects me.
alot.
a decision made can b called of by jus 1 word.
i dunno wads in my mind.
wad e hell am i thinking.
y cant i b firm in my decision.
in wad i wan.
or mayb its e person involve.
he/she may mean too much.
too much dat every single thing dey do or sae affects me.
alot.
a decision made can b called of by jus 1 word.
i dunno wads in my mind.
wad e hell am i thinking.
y cant i b firm in my decision.
in wad i wan.
7.30.2006
e long awaited moment.went to met dumb dumb.
waited quite some tym fer him.
cos his briefing end late.
den stand outside toilet wait fer e 3 gers.
got alot of his frens walk past.
to look at me?
i dunno.
but so pai seh la.
im shy can.
lols!
den went kenny rogers to eat.
tgt e pei fen.
cos she meeting her bf aft dat.
kenny rogers's serving is so big eh.
e side dish alone makes me full.
wanted to watch movie aft dat.
but it was lyk long queue la.
he sae sporeans lyks to watch mocie on ex daes instead of cheap daes.
hahas.
n tickets were selling fast.
so end up didnt watch.
went up e 'turn turn' dere.
den saw uncle tom n aunty meg.
n of cos mei mei n ah ger.
hahas.
was shock la.
bought sweets.
its a box.
den u squeeze as many sweets u can into dat box.
as long as it can close.
u can haf all e sweets tgt w e box fer $2.
so fun.
hahas.
he bought me a pooh pooh speaker.
its a soft toy.
plug ur mp3 into it.
n it can play e song out loud.
love it.
tho its not very loud.
thnks boi. =)
get to mit him twice todae.
hahas.
had fun.
starting to miss e dae alreadi.
hurs.
7.29.2006
i finali packed my cupboard.aft folding dat huge pile of clothes.
its reali a HUGE pile can.
n e cupboard is so neat now.
hahas.
spend i think 2 hrs plus to complete it lo.
not neat reali can faint liao.
haas.
was suppose to do hw de lo.
but now alreadi 3plus le.
n im meeting dumb dumb at 6pm.
not much tym left oso.
n its raining.
sians 1/2 lo.
rain rain go away.
cum again another dae.
cos lil veron wans to go out.
=)
PTB 1000 word essay.
COLD quiz qns.
NR research finding cum lit review.
all not done yet.
cuming wkend (5th n 6th) got class outing at pulau ubin.
stil thinking if i shld go.
cos now not appropriate mth to go.
n oso mummy lyk not very keen in wanting me to go.
i noe he oso don not keen in wanting me go.
so most prob not going.
den another wk (12th) got 1st aider duty.
i don think im up to saving lifes la.
somemore its cannoeing event.
i don even noe how to swim can.
think i wil nid ppl to save me instead.
hahas.
but i think it wil b a gud experience.
got e sudden urge to change my blogskin.
but very lazy go find.
very lazy to edit.
n no tym oso la.
tis shldnt b my piority.
mayb shall do dat during e hols.
prefects' investiture.
was raining lyk hell even b4 we reach sch la.
dat journey dere.
e turn aft my hse.
dat use to b so farmiliar route.
bcum so unfarmiliar.
e investiture was kind of not very formal in e end.
in fact very very informal.
which i think is very bad la.
not appropriate at all.
abit dissappointed.
n e songs is lyk 4eva e same.
cmon.
don dey haf any new ideas?
lols!
but i reali see how tis batch of graduating prefects mature.
whn i graduate dey were lyk oni sec 2?
so small can.
now dey haf all grown so tall.
so mature.
hahas.
e sch somehow changed.
so much new things r built.
so many new chers.
i feel so far away frm sec sch la.
n i reali miss it.
n can u believe it.
i actuali 4got how to sing e sch song la.
dumb.
but looking at e chers who taught me.
looking at e stil intact things in juying.
memories flash back.
daes in prefectorial board.
looking at e lockers.
how i wuld b so busy b4 sch during recess n aft sch.
ppl wil cum looking fer me.
to get their lockers open whn its heck or whn dey 4get their password.
n i wil sit dere to get e lockers open.
tedious job but reali memorable.
esp whn oni i can get e key.
hahas. =p
den whn walking home.
walk halfway den i realise.
out of 6 ppl i was e oni ger la.
lols!
den kheng loon was saeing smth.
n it reali brought back memories.
memories of e past.
oways kept within me.
how i wish i can b young 4eva.
but life gotta move on.
we gotta grow up.
n im learning to grow up.
=D
was raining lyk hell even b4 we reach sch la.
dat journey dere.
e turn aft my hse.
dat use to b so farmiliar route.
bcum so unfarmiliar.
e investiture was kind of not very formal in e end.
in fact very very informal.
which i think is very bad la.
not appropriate at all.
abit dissappointed.
n e songs is lyk 4eva e same.
cmon.
don dey haf any new ideas?
lols!
but i reali see how tis batch of graduating prefects mature.
whn i graduate dey were lyk oni sec 2?
so small can.
now dey haf all grown so tall.
so mature.
hahas.
e sch somehow changed.
so much new things r built.
so many new chers.
i feel so far away frm sec sch la.
n i reali miss it.
n can u believe it.
i actuali 4got how to sing e sch song la.
dumb.
but looking at e chers who taught me.
looking at e stil intact things in juying.
memories flash back.
daes in prefectorial board.
looking at e lockers.
how i wuld b so busy b4 sch during recess n aft sch.
ppl wil cum looking fer me.
to get their lockers open whn its heck or whn dey 4get their password.
n i wil sit dere to get e lockers open.
tedious job but reali memorable.
esp whn oni i can get e key.
hahas. =p
den whn walking home.
walk halfway den i realise.
out of 6 ppl i was e oni ger la.
lols!
den kheng loon was saeing smth.
n it reali brought back memories.
memories of e past.
oways kept within me.
how i wish i can b young 4eva.
but life gotta move on.
we gotta grow up.
n im learning to grow up.
=D
7.27.2006
i dunno wads running in my mind.so much yet so little.
im thinking n thinking but i dunno wad im thinking.
2 papers down now.
left w 3 more.
im so lack of motivation.
going back juying tml.
fer prefect's investiture.
a gud tym to mit up n kip each other updated.
hao xiang hui dao xiao shi hou.
i reali reali miss childhood daes.
ware dere is plenty of tym.
ware tym is not an obstructing factor in life.
tym is so limited now.
i cant do wad i wan to do.
i cant do wad i feel lyk doing.
i cant do wad i nid to do.
somehow i think no tym is jus plain excuses.
but. . .
7.24.2006
e pics seems kind of blur.but aiya.
nvm la.
hahas.
todae actuali wan stay at home n do my nss 1.2 de hw de lo.
den mummy la.
wake me up.
end up went jp to mit uncle aunty n cousin.
to pass dem smth.
had brunch dere.
den went westmall to find jie.
we stay dere n tok fer lyk almost 2 hrs?
hahas.
n w papa mama n ah di.
dats wad i lyk.
my frens being so close to my family.
i feel e warmth.
feel so much lyk a family. =)
den went je to buy printing paper.
hopefully my printer don walk out on me again.
i haven try printing yet.
i went to turn a thing dat is a mini turn thing.
e machine eat my $1.
damn.
den try another machine.
luckily i got pooh pooh de.
ig not i wil curse n swear at e machine.
hahas. =p
den thruout dinner.
i was not eating.
was figuring out w dat toy.
feel so much lyk a kid.
but i enjoy.
end up eating curry puff.
but neva finish oso.
let ah di eat finish.
hahas.
but im not hungry.
dunno y.
reach home.
tok n watch tv in my mama n papa rm.
until lyk 11plus?
lols.
main point is.
i didnt do my hw.
hahas.
gonna do it tml no matter wad.
self declare 2 hrs of lesson tml oni.
wuhoo.
hahas.
i lyk todae.
family.
too bad kor kor isnt wad he use to b.
last tym he wil oso join us n go out.
but now he got to work.
love e tym spend as a family.
i wan it to b lyk tis 4eva.
i love dem. =)
some hi club closing ceremony 2006 pics
bits n pieces of us.
nette, me, ada n xin.
e dead spider.
e hi club big family.

all kick ivan. hahas.
e spiderwoman. 
bits n pieces of us.
nette, me, ada n xin.
e dead spider.
e hi club big family.
all kick ivan. hahas.
e spiderwoman. 
me n carl.
7.23.2006
if i was not born a pre matured child of 2 weeks.wad wil i be now?
how will my life be?
e difference between a 1988 n a 1989.
i cant imagine.
wil i lead a better life than now?
wil i b worrying lesser?
its reali all down to fate.
i now a certified 1st aider!!!
but actuali i don feel much excitement.
cos prob e examiner was not strict enuff.
its lyk everyone pass.
n lyk very shui bian de pass.
oso don haf dat sense of achivement u noe.
tho it was lyk a long process.
a 3 full dae course.
n i don think w tis kind of standards.
im able to go out dere n save life.
i think i wil break ppl's rib cage.
furthur enhance ppl's injury.
ya rite.
wad a 1st aider man.
NSL pract nxt wed.
NSL theory next wed.
NR thoery next wed.
wad e hell.
y isit so fast?
we haf been back in sch fer lyk e most 2 wks oni?
sch of health sci is reali driving us to our limits.
hi club closing was reali a success.
e deco was reali nice.
nette, u did a gud job. `cheers!
n wilson.
he reali did alot alot.
im lyk so gulity la.
neva reali help out much.
thnks everyone fer making e closing ceremony a success.
=D
dieing but stil surviving.
in dat small tiny little bubble of mine.
7.20.2006
im feel so ALONE.i think im so useless.
e more i tok bout unhappy stuffs.
e more i think bout unhappy stuffs.
e more sad i wil b.
e more i haf e urge to tear.
n eventually i wil tear.
am i too sensitive?
haissss. =(
7.19.2006
while taking bus home w lyn.beep beep.
msg frm cam: lol. u guys fail pharma again. lyn 16 1/2 veron 16.
how great.
we fail again.
i fail again.
lyn: cam sae 5 ppl pass tis pharma test nia. meaning less than half of e ppl pass. so means its not our fault la.
me: but y we fail again? y wil fail?
lyn: aiya alot of things is arranged properly alreadi la.
me: but actuali e paper not very difficult aft all. i think we reali fan jian lo.
lyn: ya la. if we got study think shld b not very difficult.
me: aiyo. y fail?
damn rite.
y i fail?
think
omg.
if i fail at e end of e term.
meaning i wil haf to retain.
meaning e yrs of study wil b more than 3 yrs.
meaning NUH wil scream e hell out of me.
meaning my parents wil scare e hell out of dem.
meaning my uncles (my guarantor) wil b hell lots dissappointed in me.
meaning NUH wil kick me out of their teritory.
meaning death is awaiting me.
i asked cam n lyn.
me: i reali wonder. if in e 1st place i didnt purchase a com. den wad wil i be doing all tis while. wil i head str to bed everydae? wil i study? or wil i jus slack me way thru?
lyn: think go u home oso wun study la. but exam cfm wil study. den u wil b less sleepy.
i don rmb wad cam sae. =/
i agree w lyn la.
i wil slp more.
which means i may be more attentive in class la.
me: i stil think we reali very fan jian lo.
lyn: but u see at least tis means we r closer n noe e RCHN ppl more.
me: yea. in life dere sure to b u gain smth n u lose smth. but hor we lyk lose de more leh.
lyn: ya lo. we lose smth more impt.
me: aiya we reali fan jian la. we did tis cos its our own choice. think we die oso gai si lo.
i used to b much more disciplined.
wad happen?
wad happen to me?
gosh`
lecture was 2 hrs.
went fer e 1st hr.
n pon e last hr.
whn angeline sae break oni.
wah piangs.
u can reali see how many ppl take their bags.
n leave e lecture hall.
almost half e ppl in e lecture hall.
i feel sad fer her la.
but i stil skipped.
lols!
but i reali cant take it.
can u imagine.
i actuali wan to listen.
n im listening n jotting down notes.
but i dunno wad e hell happen.
i write until i fall aslp.
ya.
i noe.
it sounds so ridiculous.
but it reali happen.
on me. =/
pon lecture.
den went HS office to hand in nss2 assignment.
all thnks to fiona.
she reali did alot on e project.
make me feel so guilty la.
lyk i didnt reali help much fer e projects.
cos haf been ultra busy.
but i felt so dumb.
thinking its all plain excuses.
lols!
we were sitting in e office.
den dr thomas came.
he seat down n tok to us.
he's e lecturer dat we actuali treat lyk a fren la.
tok bout every thing anything.
probably cos he's a phycologist ba.
its reali powerful.
=D
e 5 of us.
lyn, cam, dy, jon n me.
cum to think of it.
all 5 of us fail at least 1 module during e recent common test.
dr thomas was very concern la.
he tok to us.
ask us to study.
n kind of lyk tell us n persuade us on wad we r doing.
i noe everyone hates tis.
but i think it moved me a little.
it makes me wan to work hard a little.
think i shld b more motivated.
mayb i shld go search fer dat particular book.
e wan dat interest me.
e wan dat wil stimulate my mind.
its true.
actuali we haf tym.
but we jus simply waste our tym away la.
damn fan jian.
oways online don do hw.
don do project.
check email.
check frendster.
chat on msn.
if i don do tis i wil haf so much more tym.
to complete my assignment.
to do my projects.
to b able to study in advance fer my papers.
dr thomas: 10pm is e best tym to slp.
but lesson normally ends at 6pm.
by e tym reach hm, bath, eat it will b lyk 8pm or 830pm le.
so im left w oni lyk 1 n a half hr.
wad can i do w it?
so damn short can.
n lyn oso say.
slping is a absolute waste of tym.
if don slp reali can do alot of things.
dy oso sae die le can slp all we wan.
yes yes yes.
im totally fer all those ok.
i reali wan e best out of my life.
but im thinking.
if im going to stick to all those.
wun life b very un-life-ly.
un-happening.
which is wad i don wan.
BUT.
i seriously wan e best
i oso dunno wad im toking.
im so bloody hell tired.
doubt i wil b so disciplined.
lols!
went fer e 1st hr.
n pon e last hr.
whn angeline sae break oni.
wah piangs.
u can reali see how many ppl take their bags.
n leave e lecture hall.
almost half e ppl in e lecture hall.
i feel sad fer her la.
but i stil skipped.
lols!
but i reali cant take it.
can u imagine.
i actuali wan to listen.
n im listening n jotting down notes.
but i dunno wad e hell happen.
i write until i fall aslp.
ya.
i noe.
it sounds so ridiculous.
but it reali happen.
on me. =/
pon lecture.
den went HS office to hand in nss2 assignment.
all thnks to fiona.
she reali did alot on e project.
make me feel so guilty la.
lyk i didnt reali help much fer e projects.
cos haf been ultra busy.
but i felt so dumb.
thinking its all plain excuses.
lols!
we were sitting in e office.
den dr thomas came.
he seat down n tok to us.
he's e lecturer dat we actuali treat lyk a fren la.
tok bout every thing anything.
probably cos he's a phycologist ba.
its reali powerful.
=D
e 5 of us.
lyn, cam, dy, jon n me.
cum to think of it.
all 5 of us fail at least 1 module during e recent common test.
dr thomas was very concern la.
he tok to us.
ask us to study.
n kind of lyk tell us n persuade us on wad we r doing.
i noe everyone hates tis.
but i think it moved me a little.
it makes me wan to work hard a little.
think i shld b more motivated.
mayb i shld go search fer dat particular book.
e wan dat interest me.
e wan dat wil stimulate my mind.
its true.
actuali we haf tym.
but we jus simply waste our tym away la.
damn fan jian.
oways online don do hw.
don do project.
check email.
check frendster.
chat on msn.
if i don do tis i wil haf so much more tym.
to complete my assignment.
to do my projects.
to b able to study in advance fer my papers.
dr thomas: 10pm is e best tym to slp.
but lesson normally ends at 6pm.
by e tym reach hm, bath, eat it will b lyk 8pm or 830pm le.
so im left w oni lyk 1 n a half hr.
wad can i do w it?
so damn short can.
n lyn oso say.
slping is a absolute waste of tym.
if don slp reali can do alot of things.
dy oso sae die le can slp all we wan.
yes yes yes.
im totally fer all those ok.
i reali wan e best out of my life.
but im thinking.
if im going to stick to all those.
wun life b very un-life-ly.
un-happening.
which is wad i don wan.
BUT.
i seriously wan e best
i oso dunno wad im toking.
im so bloody hell tired.
doubt i wil b so disciplined.
lols!
7.18.2006
as requested by aishah.but anw here it goes.
7 random facts bout me
1. undecisive.
2. lazy.
3. hates veg.
4. bad at expressing myself.
5. slow at learning.
6. tan.
7. ok. short.
7 things that scares me
1. taking a cab alone esp whn its late in e nite.
2. tons of assignment w no tym to complete.
3. e feeling of being uncertain.
4. handling life n death.
5. losing my love ones.
6. killing too much of my brain cells.
7. bad exams results.
7 random music at e moment
1. mei mei.
2. ji de.
3. yu dao.
4. fen shou kuai le.
5. yong qi.
6. bu xiang zhang da.
7. because u love me.
7 things i lyk most
1. being showered w love.
2. stare rite into e com w/o having to do stuffs r/t to sch.
3. my room tho its kinda messy. =x
4. happy daes.
5. memories kept within.
6. chocolates.
7. pooh pooh.
7 things i sae most
1. dumb dumb.
2. hahas.
3. hurhur.
4. huh?
5. then.
6. wth.
7. ehhh.
7 ppl to do this
1. anyone
2. who
3. is
4. interested
5. and
6. bored
7. =D
life recently haf been too busy happening.
shedule is so pack.
i cant even find tym to breathe.
11 daes since i blogged.
so much happened.
so much to sae.
so much to do.
yet so little tym.
projects r piling up.
one aft another.
whn u r done w tis.
e other wil cum.
whn can all tis end?
neva.
n its so sucky.
sch wasnt gud at all.
tho 1 wk has pass since attachment.
im stil not into lesson yet.
i haven been paying FULL attention.
n i think im going down e slope.
more n more.
nxt wk wil b NSL thoery n pract.
im so unprepared.
ultra-ly not ready.
BSLC - basic cardiac life support will follow up nxt.
its compulsory fer all missy.
missy go go go!
RCHN - red cross humantarian network.
was attending its 1st aider course during e wkends.
its fun but tough.
CPR is reali not as easy as i tot it was.
pray w all my might dat i can pass e test.
n not waste e HQ $70 fer e course.
hahas.
pharma test was a disaster i think.
im going to flunk it AGAIN.
in fact i think im gonna score less dan my common test.
how great.
my brain doesnt wan to work.
shedule is so pack.
i cant even find tym to breathe.
11 daes since i blogged.
so much happened.
so much to sae.
so much to do.
yet so little tym.
projects r piling up.
one aft another.
whn u r done w tis.
e other wil cum.
whn can all tis end?
neva.
n its so sucky.
sch wasnt gud at all.
tho 1 wk has pass since attachment.
im stil not into lesson yet.
i haven been paying FULL attention.
n i think im going down e slope.
more n more.
nxt wk wil b NSL thoery n pract.
im so unprepared.
ultra-ly not ready.
BSLC - basic cardiac life support will follow up nxt.
its compulsory fer all missy.
missy go go go!
RCHN - red cross humantarian network.
was attending its 1st aider course during e wkends.
its fun but tough.
CPR is reali not as easy as i tot it was.
pray w all my might dat i can pass e test.
n not waste e HQ $70 fer e course.
hahas.
pharma test was a disaster i think.
im going to flunk it AGAIN.
in fact i think im gonna score less dan my common test.
how great.
my brain doesnt wan to work.
7.06.2006
joke of e dae.student nurses leaving e ward.
waiting to sign out at e nursing counter.
w quite alot of staff nurse at e nursing counter.
priak!
suddenly e table at e nurses counter broke.
yes.
dat bad.
mohammad suffian is e cultprit.
hahas.
everyone was luffing our heads off la.
even ward nurses.
suffian was sitting at e nursing counter's table.
he's reali a joker man.
aft luffing.
e staff nurse told him off.
SN: i realli dunno how u all can break e table. u r 2nd person who broke e table. e 1st wan was a consultant. tho he was not as big size as u. u better hope that e sister don scold u tml.
hahas.
u mus experience e scenario urself.
n u wil noe how farnie it is.
think its e 1st tym i actuali reali luff in dat ward.
we even told suffian to write dat as 1 of e highlights fer his attachment.
n e area fer improvement wil b: not breaking another table at e nurses counter.
HAHAHAHA.
he said it makes him leave an impression in dat ward.
in all e staff nurses dere.
i wonder wad ms mary wil sae tml upon hearing bout e incident.
hahas.
got back my log book todae.
tho e marks wasnt very idea compared to my last posting.
but its reasonable marks.
69 marks.
ms mary gave everyone of us a magnet bookmark.
mine was doraemon.
but i change w daphne.
cos hers is pooh pooh de. =)
i had something extra.
something dat others don haf.
ms mary wrote me a note.
on e front.
its a pooh n piglet picture.
w dere's oways tym fer a fren.
on e inside.
it shows be happy.
n a sign off by ms mary.


i think she's so nice.
at least dat helps.
it encourage me.
to be a better person.
to take every -ve feedback positively.
thnks ms mary! =D
tho e marks wasnt very idea compared to my last posting.
but its reasonable marks.
69 marks.
ms mary gave everyone of us a magnet bookmark.
mine was doraemon.
but i change w daphne.
cos hers is pooh pooh de. =)
i had something extra.
something dat others don haf.
ms mary wrote me a note.
on e front.
its a pooh n piglet picture.
w dere's oways tym fer a fren.
on e inside.
it shows be happy.
n a sign off by ms mary.


i think she's so nice.
at least dat helps.
it encourage me.
to be a better person.
to take every -ve feedback positively.
thnks ms mary! =D
7.05.2006
as i was bout to walk into my cubicle.e doc asked to to take sp02 fer
lets cal him mr swit 78.
mr swit 78 cos whn i asked how old was he.
he told me swit 78.
hahas.
missy teh: uncle. i check ok.
mr swit 78: u r very pretty.
missy teh: thnk you. =)
mr swit 78: how is my sp02?
missy teh: 98%. very gud.
mr swit 78: u r reali very pretty. i wonder who's e lucky wan.
missy teh: hahas.
aft helping jon in changing fer
lets cal him mr love-his-wife-alot uncle.
he's a nice husband n nice father. =)
as me n jon walk past mr swit 78.
she told jon.
mr swit 78: she is so pretty.
jon: but too bad leh she don wan me.
missy teh: shut up la u.
i fed mr swit 78.
as i was feeding him.
mr swit 78: tml im going to tel
missy teh: tel wad?
mr swit 78: i got a pretty nurse to feed me.
hahas.
mmmmmmmmmmmmm.
do u think u r e lucky one?
7.04.2006
e post was pretty brief.cos i cant take it anymore.
n eyes r closing.
im damn tired.
ultra tired.
its so much of a coincidence.
kelvin.
my pri sch mate.
e one who had a liking fer me in pri sch daes.
haa.
michelle called yest n told me she saw kelvin.
n say he was looking fer me.
n sae to add each other in frendster.
e adding was done yest.
n todae.
i saw him.
dere's a story behind tis guy.
a secret to tel.
hahas.
but no todae.
im reali tired.
thnks boi.
fer accompanying me todae.
tho u've got lyk tons of projects to do.
n feeling as tired as i do.
but u stil neva fail to make me smile.
=)
it was alot alot more dan hell 4 me todae.
e hell was too deep dat it made me teared.
usually suhailah wil take e same bus at e same tym as me.
but todae she was late n she miss her bus.
so i was alone.
b4 i slept.
dere were lots of NP student nurses in e bus.
whn i woke up.
all i see was ppl not in NP nursing uniform.
unfarmiliar faces.
i overslept.
dat small tiny winy eyes of mine saw ppl looking at me i a weird way.
probably thinking y im stil on dat bloody hell bus.
got my butts off e bus.
jon called whn i jus got off e bus.
he knew bout me overslept.
n ask me to enjoy walking back.
lols!
looking at e sign board.
i was 1 stop away frm NUH.
walk n walk.
trying to get back to dat bus stop.
i pass a bus stop.
w/o 97.
fear strike me.
i den noe i was in a place.
a place ware i had no idea ware i was.
i called jon.
telling him i dunno ware e hell i am.
wanted to take cab.
but apart of me feared.
howeva i knew if i don i wil b late.
thnk god.
it was a short dist.
$2.90.
whn i reached.
yali who was in e same bus as i was.
asked me if i overslept.
den i sae ya la.
tsk!
see me neva wake up up.
she was uncertain.
she tot i was going AH.
ward.
1st thing.
i think e pt is abit mentally unsound.
she claimed dat she was 20+ yrs old yest.
n 30+ yrs old todae.
yest she was kissing my hand n hugging me.
todae she was grabbing whole of my hands real tight.
wanting to pinch me.
n she did.
veron n yiting of standing outside e toilet cubicle.
each waiting fer our own pt.
e AN came.
whn i dun even noe who e hell is she.
n wad e hell is she doing in e toilet.
AN: wad r e 2 of u standing here for whn ur pts r in e toilet n u r not accompanying dem? if dey happens to fall. u wun noe.
yiting: my pt don wan me to go in w her. she wans to bath on her own.
veronica: my pt oso.
AN: don u all noe dat ur pts haf e green tag *fall risk* n u *relating to me* y u allow ur pt to lock e door? she den knock on e door.
veron's pt: yest e nurse ask me to bath myself. n ask me to pull e call bell whn im done.
AN: veronica. even if tis is so u cant let ur pt lock e door.
wad e hell?!
1stly.
if she thinks dere's no point standing outside to wait fer e pt cos we wun noe if dey happens to fall.
den wad?
by standing in e ward cubicle allows u to noe wads going to happen in e toilet?
i admit.
i overlook dat e pt dat pt shld not lock e door.
but i see no reason y i cant not stand outside e toilet cubicle n wait fer e pt.
aft dat 'arguement'.
she went out of e toilet.
telling eveyone in e ward.
oh shut up!
who do u think u r?
n in e 1st place.
y aint u doing wad u r suppose to b doing n walking into e toilet?
den came my cubicle AN.
she was lyk oways asking me n clare to do parameters.
update i/o chart.
but ware is she all e while?
she is oways no ware to b seen.
n whn she's back.
she wil start blaming us if e parameter n i/o charts r incomplete.
we r not ur maid.
taking parameter n updating of i/o chart is ur job.
n u jus dissappear.
we r here to learn.
not to do ur job.
den i was feeding tis pt.
n e sister came in.
saeing dat i shld haf place e bib on e pt 'into' e clothes n not hold on to it.
saeing dat i shld place e cardiac table accross e bed.
saeing dat i shld put e pillow at e side of e bed.
so dat e pt's head do not tilt.
sometyms i wonder.
i seriously noe e pt more dan e sister do.
all she does is sit in her office.
ya.
wads e point of putting e pillow.
aft she went e pt's head tilt back again.
but does she noe?
n she even told ms mary bout tis incident.
ya.
wadeva!
den was toking to ms mary.
regarding log bk n learning journal.
ya.
everything is not done yet.
n im so stressed.
aft all e impt stuffs.
i told ms mary of e incident.
til i teared.
i dunno y.
n it was quite bad la.
as in e tearing.
my worst dae of attachment life ever.
i hate NUH ward 64.
e staffs dere.
e sisters dere.
everything dere.
its not me thinking tis way.
its e whole chorhot students in dat hell ward 64.
whnever we haf briefing at 1230 whn e pm shift ppl cum.
all of us dread to go back to work.
n we wuld physco ms mary to let us stay in e dae rm.
b it gif us smth to do.
sharing of experiences.
but neva out to e ward.
dats how bad it is.
SUX SUX SUX.
e hell was too deep dat it made me teared.
usually suhailah wil take e same bus at e same tym as me.
but todae she was late n she miss her bus.
so i was alone.
b4 i slept.
dere were lots of NP student nurses in e bus.
whn i woke up.
all i see was ppl not in NP nursing uniform.
unfarmiliar faces.
i overslept.
dat small tiny winy eyes of mine saw ppl looking at me i a weird way.
probably thinking y im stil on dat bloody hell bus.
got my butts off e bus.
jon called whn i jus got off e bus.
he knew bout me overslept.
n ask me to enjoy walking back.
lols!
looking at e sign board.
i was 1 stop away frm NUH.
walk n walk.
trying to get back to dat bus stop.
i pass a bus stop.
w/o 97.
fear strike me.
i den noe i was in a place.
a place ware i had no idea ware i was.
i called jon.
telling him i dunno ware e hell i am.
wanted to take cab.
but apart of me feared.
howeva i knew if i don i wil b late.
thnk god.
it was a short dist.
$2.90.
whn i reached.
yali who was in e same bus as i was.
asked me if i overslept.
den i sae ya la.
tsk!
see me neva wake up up.
she was uncertain.
she tot i was going AH.
ward.
1st thing.
i think e pt is abit mentally unsound.
she claimed dat she was 20+ yrs old yest.
n 30+ yrs old todae.
yest she was kissing my hand n hugging me.
todae she was grabbing whole of my hands real tight.
wanting to pinch me.
n she did.
veron n yiting of standing outside e toilet cubicle.
each waiting fer our own pt.
e AN came.
whn i dun even noe who e hell is she.
n wad e hell is she doing in e toilet.
AN: wad r e 2 of u standing here for whn ur pts r in e toilet n u r not accompanying dem? if dey happens to fall. u wun noe.
yiting: my pt don wan me to go in w her. she wans to bath on her own.
veronica: my pt oso.
AN: don u all noe dat ur pts haf e green tag *fall risk* n u *relating to me* y u allow ur pt to lock e door? she den knock on e door.
veron's pt: yest e nurse ask me to bath myself. n ask me to pull e call bell whn im done.
AN: veronica. even if tis is so u cant let ur pt lock e door.
wad e hell?!
1stly.
if she thinks dere's no point standing outside to wait fer e pt cos we wun noe if dey happens to fall.
den wad?
by standing in e ward cubicle allows u to noe wads going to happen in e toilet?
i admit.
i overlook dat e pt dat pt shld not lock e door.
but i see no reason y i cant not stand outside e toilet cubicle n wait fer e pt.
aft dat 'arguement'.
she went out of e toilet.
telling eveyone in e ward.
oh shut up!
who do u think u r?
n in e 1st place.
y aint u doing wad u r suppose to b doing n walking into e toilet?
den came my cubicle AN.
she was lyk oways asking me n clare to do parameters.
update i/o chart.
but ware is she all e while?
she is oways no ware to b seen.
n whn she's back.
she wil start blaming us if e parameter n i/o charts r incomplete.
we r not ur maid.
taking parameter n updating of i/o chart is ur job.
n u jus dissappear.
we r here to learn.
not to do ur job.
den i was feeding tis pt.
n e sister came in.
saeing dat i shld haf place e bib on e pt 'into' e clothes n not hold on to it.
saeing dat i shld place e cardiac table accross e bed.
saeing dat i shld put e pillow at e side of e bed.
so dat e pt's head do not tilt.
sometyms i wonder.
i seriously noe e pt more dan e sister do.
all she does is sit in her office.
ya.
wads e point of putting e pillow.
aft she went e pt's head tilt back again.
but does she noe?
n she even told ms mary bout tis incident.
ya.
wadeva!
den was toking to ms mary.
regarding log bk n learning journal.
ya.
everything is not done yet.
n im so stressed.
aft all e impt stuffs.
i told ms mary of e incident.
til i teared.
i dunno y.
n it was quite bad la.
as in e tearing.
my worst dae of attachment life ever.
i hate NUH ward 64.
e staffs dere.
e sisters dere.
everything dere.
its not me thinking tis way.
its e whole chorhot students in dat hell ward 64.
whnever we haf briefing at 1230 whn e pm shift ppl cum.
all of us dread to go back to work.
n we wuld physco ms mary to let us stay in e dae rm.
b it gif us smth to do.
sharing of experiences.
but neva out to e ward.
dats how bad it is.
SUX SUX SUX.
7.03.2006
WTF.whn daes b4 me were so nice.
so enjoyable.
den came all e projects.
PROJECTS.
ASSIGNMENTS.
ATTACHMENT.
DEY R ALL DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!
n i cant even slp yet.
n its alreadi almost 1am.
n im working morn shift tml.
BLESS ME
7.02.2006
weekend spent was splendid.sat.
met jie aft her flag dae.
swimming.
heart to heart tok in e pool.
hahas.
so cool.
den aft bathing we went jogging.
i think im getting old.
jogging/running is not my cup of tea.
hahas.
u ask me to do sports i can.
but jogging/running.
BIG NONO.
took bus back to jie's hse.
oni 1 or 2 stops.
but was too tired to walk.
hahas.
climb e stairs up.
dunno wad went into us dat dae.
sport freaks!
but i lyk. =)
healthy lifestyle ok.
hahas.
den bath AGAIN.
cos sweat ma.
frm e jog.
head down to queensway aft dat.
had some junk food.
corn.
seeweed chicken.
taiwan suasuage.
tutu kueh.
we share la.
but of cos i ate more. =p
we were in tis sports shop.
guy: can i help u?
me: (turn over) jus looking ard.
jie: (turn over) ehhh!!!
guy: im her biao ge. *cousin*
wah piangs.
damn pai seh la.
hahas.
i reali tot is salesman lo.
her cousin joker sia.
on e way to cwealth mrt.
swee leong msg me.
asking if i wan to catch a movie w him.
thinking i've alreadi rejected him so many tyms.
feeling kind of bad la.
so i agreed.
b4 e movie.
dae, xin n phyu came to find me.
hahas.
glad to noe dat closing de stuffs is almost done.
n e deco was great.
didnt reali help put much cos of attachment.
sorry ppl.
jiayous!
superman.
i tot it was a 1hr plus movie.
meaning dere wil stil b transport home.
dats y i agreed.
but it turn out to b a 2 n a half hr movie.
sit until my butt oso ripe sia.
haa.
if i noe it was such a long movie i wuldnt haf watch it.
took a cab home.
swee leong pei me wait fer cab la.
den he walk home.
hahas.
chatted w marmie on e fone.
cos im scare of taking cab alone.
sun.
mit up w my boi. =)
so long no see him alreadi.
suppose to b miting at 11am at boon lay.
but dat pig.
slp.
n end up meeting me oni at 130pm.
stil sae he can wake up.
lousy boi. =p
kfc fer brunch.
damn full.
change $ frm e $ changer.
went popular to buy files.
pay bills.
dere's tis booth fer wedding de.
whn we walk to 7 eleven to pay bills.
damn farnie la.
dat person was lyk asking us to go over n see.
hey.
we look so old meh?
hahas.
so young marry wad?
haiyos.
i think he anihow wan lo.
see couple oni jiu ask de.
0_0
den head to je to change batt fer my watch.
finali its moving.
but sometym isnt it better fer tym to stop?
all those wonderful tym.
tym don wait fer ppl.
den took prints.
dat machine is so cute.
hahas.
n dat dumb dumb boi.
was so excited over it la.
it was tym.
he had to go.
to mit his aunt n relatives.
to haf dinner.
tho oni met up fer such a short while aft so long.
but im happy.
happy enuff.
esp seeing him happy. =)
i love todae.
i love e pics we took todae.
i love u.
memories shall oways stay within.
stuck in my head n never b erased.
