7.04.2006
it was alot alot more dan hell 4 me todae.e hell was too deep dat it made me teared.
usually suhailah wil take e same bus at e same tym as me.
but todae she was late n she miss her bus.
so i was alone.
b4 i slept.
dere were lots of NP student nurses in e bus.
whn i woke up.
all i see was ppl not in NP nursing uniform.
unfarmiliar faces.
i overslept.
dat small tiny winy eyes of mine saw ppl looking at me i a weird way.
probably thinking y im stil on dat bloody hell bus.
got my butts off e bus.
jon called whn i jus got off e bus.
he knew bout me overslept.
n ask me to enjoy walking back.
lols!
looking at e sign board.
i was 1 stop away frm NUH.
walk n walk.
trying to get back to dat bus stop.
i pass a bus stop.
w/o 97.
fear strike me.
i den noe i was in a place.
a place ware i had no idea ware i was.
i called jon.
telling him i dunno ware e hell i am.
wanted to take cab.
but apart of me feared.
howeva i knew if i don i wil b late.
thnk god.
it was a short dist.
$2.90.
whn i reached.
yali who was in e same bus as i was.
asked me if i overslept.
den i sae ya la.
tsk!
see me neva wake up up.
she was uncertain.
she tot i was going AH.
ward.
1st thing.
i think e pt is abit mentally unsound.
she claimed dat she was 20+ yrs old yest.
n 30+ yrs old todae.
yest she was kissing my hand n hugging me.
todae she was grabbing whole of my hands real tight.
wanting to pinch me.
n she did.
veron n yiting of standing outside e toilet cubicle.
each waiting fer our own pt.
e AN came.
whn i dun even noe who e hell is she.
n wad e hell is she doing in e toilet.
AN: wad r e 2 of u standing here for whn ur pts r in e toilet n u r not accompanying dem? if dey happens to fall. u wun noe.
yiting: my pt don wan me to go in w her. she wans to bath on her own.
veronica: my pt oso.
AN: don u all noe dat ur pts haf e green tag *fall risk* n u *relating to me* y u allow ur pt to lock e door? she den knock on e door.
veron's pt: yest e nurse ask me to bath myself. n ask me to pull e call bell whn im done.
AN: veronica. even if tis is so u cant let ur pt lock e door.
wad e hell?!
1stly.
if she thinks dere's no point standing outside to wait fer e pt cos we wun noe if dey happens to fall.
den wad?
by standing in e ward cubicle allows u to noe wads going to happen in e toilet?
i admit.
i overlook dat e pt dat pt shld not lock e door.
but i see no reason y i cant not stand outside e toilet cubicle n wait fer e pt.
aft dat 'arguement'.
she went out of e toilet.
telling eveyone in e ward.
oh shut up!
who do u think u r?
n in e 1st place.
y aint u doing wad u r suppose to b doing n walking into e toilet?
den came my cubicle AN.
she was lyk oways asking me n clare to do parameters.
update i/o chart.
but ware is she all e while?
she is oways no ware to b seen.
n whn she's back.
she wil start blaming us if e parameter n i/o charts r incomplete.
we r not ur maid.
taking parameter n updating of i/o chart is ur job.
n u jus dissappear.
we r here to learn.
not to do ur job.
den i was feeding tis pt.
n e sister came in.
saeing dat i shld haf place e bib on e pt 'into' e clothes n not hold on to it.
saeing dat i shld place e cardiac table accross e bed.
saeing dat i shld put e pillow at e side of e bed.
so dat e pt's head do not tilt.
sometyms i wonder.
i seriously noe e pt more dan e sister do.
all she does is sit in her office.
ya.
wads e point of putting e pillow.
aft she went e pt's head tilt back again.
but does she noe?
n she even told ms mary bout tis incident.
ya.
wadeva!
den was toking to ms mary.
regarding log bk n learning journal.
ya.
everything is not done yet.
n im so stressed.
aft all e impt stuffs.
i told ms mary of e incident.
til i teared.
i dunno y.
n it was quite bad la.
as in e tearing.
my worst dae of attachment life ever.
i hate NUH ward 64.
e staffs dere.
e sisters dere.
everything dere.
its not me thinking tis way.
its e whole chorhot students in dat hell ward 64.
whnever we haf briefing at 1230 whn e pm shift ppl cum.
all of us dread to go back to work.
n we wuld physco ms mary to let us stay in e dae rm.
b it gif us smth to do.
sharing of experiences.
but neva out to e ward.
dats how bad it is.
SUX SUX SUX.