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exams r over.
think im gonna do badly.
n i really mean BADLY.

nss 1.1 n nss 1.2 paper was being change.
so toopid can.
everything dat cher sae did not came out.
n i oni studied mainly wad she sae was impt.
so u can imagine how badly im gonna flunk it.
gif me many many lucks.
lols!

but pharma was alrite.
almost all tutorial qns la.
tho stil got some i dunno how to do,
but majority stil alrite.
hope can help to pull my common test up.

BCLS thoery.
finally pass la.
oso dunno how i fail it lo.
n lyk pass on e 3rd attempt.
feel so toopid la.

exams end on wed.
had a shopping spree aft dat.
its been a long tym i did dat.
n i love it.

thurs wan to watch love wrecked w dumb dumb.
e show quite nice.
so parts very farnie oso.
hahas.

den pei him go funan study.
i was reading tis story book.
5 ppl u mit in heaven.
yiping de.
a nice n meaningful story.

oh yes.
zhong dian.
he study den draw my hand lo.
sot wan.
den dere's tis small little monster or ghost or bird (dats wad he sae it is but i don feel dat it look lyk).
its so cute la.
i kept luffing at it.
hahas.


e hand drew by him. spot e monster/bird/ghost. lols.

fri.
went tanning at sentosa w cam n dy.
didnt tan long.
cos it rain.
damn suay la.
but aft we bath den e rain stop.
diaos rite.

den went we left.
dere's tis gp of guys.
not very young la.
dy sae dey r frm china.
lols!

he sae bye to us lo.
den went i look up he smile to me.
omg!
eeeeeeeeekkk la.
sot de.


e 3 of us.


our mirror image.


again again.


dy n cam.


me n cam.

den went back sch fer meeting fer camp.
but it was cancel.
lyk wad e hell lo.
quite angry w e planning n everything la.
lyk shldnt it b their responsibility?
but aiya 4get it la.
its over.
peace. =)

went JE aft dat.
buy things n shop.
actuali is me, cam, lyn, jon n chun hui de.
den ben, zb n ym cum n find us.

had dinner at BK.
got e party crown hat la.
so nice.
den we took pics w it.
((:


e BK crown.


crown on us.

sat n sun.
went fer camp.
tis camp was pretty ok nia.
too much toking going on.
make me slpy la.

e team bonding games.
i oni lyk e soccer game.
super fun.
hahas.
n dat toopid zb kick me n wan to block me lo.
i kick until my shoe spoil.
den zb fix it back fer me.
hahas.

den another wan is e rafting de.
didnt go initially.
cos 1 tym oni 6 ppl can go.
den 2nd tym i went.
we zb n nicholas.

so fun la.
cos i don nid to paddle.
i was lyk putting my legs on e 'float'.
den zb n nicholas beside me.
n dey paddle.
fun fun.

oso lyk e concert nite.
tho our performance sux lyk hell la.
damn pai seh can.
we r e nosier chpt n our performance lyk shit.
hahas.

fashion show.
nicholas represent us.
so sexy la.
cos guy act as ger.
tho we dint win any prize fer dat.
but gud job nicholas! =)

we won e best cheer leading.
wohoo~
think we r reali loud enuff la.
hahas.
we r e noise maker eh.
lols!

n sat is e dae in my life ware i get to see e most aeroplane la.
reali alot.
abit see until sians.
hahas.


one of e areoplane.


we take pics jon oways wan to extra put his face in de leh. haiyos. nth him. >.<


nicholas n kelvin. nicholas so cute la. w e hairband on. n he look lyk ger lo. =X hahas.


zi bin de durian head n my pink hairband. hahas.

den sun went home aft camp.
reach hm at 5plus.
bath.
eat ice cream.
n slp lo.

luckily dumb sae he think i wil slp til tml which is todae la.
den i think mayb i reali wil.
so set alarm.
or else im gonna miss my attachment.
hahas.

so i slept frm 530pm on sun til 5am on mon la.
so pro.
hahas.
so nice to slp man.

attachment todae was bored to e max.
not in any attachment mood at all la.
tis posting its b1 class ward.
meaning its 4 bed-der.
e air con damm freezing cold lo.
n reali got nth to do.

imagine.
19 more daes.
standing dere.
w nth to do.
i think we look lyk dogs guarding e door la.
>.<

ming tian hui gen hao.
=)

another whole dae gone.
w nth done.
no studying done at all.

my mind is not on e books.
its 4eva someware else.
someware so far away frm books.

somemore im going out tml.
most prob its a whole dae.
even if its not.
i don think i will study.

i nid to get myself back.
or tis sem's result is gonna b total disastrous.

im so much diff in terms of studying.
frm sec to poly.
i dunno wad got into me.
no motivation to study at all.

someone.
pls reali motivate me.

isit reali dat easy fer someone to 4get smth?
i dunno.
but it wuldnt b e case fer me.
e pic of dat ger n e guy is stil running in my mind.
lols!
kpo la veron.

study study study.
i think i nid a super clear mind fer me to study.
brain jam.
gonna delete stuffs frm my brain fer e tym being.
so dat it can store all those chim-ology stuffs inside.

dat whole pile of notes is driving me mad.
see liao oso pengs.

now lyk so many sales leh.
feel lyk shopping.
lols!
but lyk no tym.
n no money oso.
dots.

mummy stil not keen in letting me go canada cambodia i mean.
ask her again jus now.
but stil no.
she sae daddy oso sae no.
dunno real anot.
oways bluff me.
hur.

not gud de.
mummy don let.
daddy don let.
he oso don let.
y lidat?
lols!

she tok to me.
yes.
neglected is e word.
but aiya.
who cares man.

xi guan jiu hao.
im learning.
learning to b ultra independent.
i noe tis is pathetic.
but ok.
wadeva!

i fail my BCLS lo.
sux to e max.
76/100.
whn we nid to get 80 to pass e thing.
madness.

but aniwae dere wil b a retest la.
wish me luck.
lols!

attachment posting is alreadi out.
miss sara!
attachment wil haf sufferings.
n its 4 wks.

n im working on aftnoon shift on his bdae.
i noe he's sad.
plus his grade's.
tho its not very bad.
but he think he culd do better.

boy.
tml wil b a better dae alrites.
at least if not tml.
nxt mth wil b a better one.
jiayou tgt fer exams yea.
loves.
=)

its oni whn u r reali down.
dat u reali noe who r e ones who wil b dere.
b dere fer u all e way.
walking thru every mile w u.

i cant believe my eyes.

was browsing thru frenster.
tis 2 pri sch fren of mine my bro.
ok.
we r frm e same pri.

think dey r tgt fer lyk 2 yrs plus alreadi.
n dey look seems feel so lovely.
so deeply in love.
but!!!

whn i browse thru.
e guy was taking pics w another ger.
n dat ger is someone i noe.
n dey alreadi cal each other husbands n wife.
-_-"

yes.
dey broke up.
reason due to dat ger?
i dunno.

but i reali culdnt believe wad i see.
i so much believe in e 2 of dem.
dat dey gonna last til eternity.
lols!

wads happening?
wads happening to tis world?
i see nth.
blank.

now i noe.
who's e one who has oways been dere.
whn u truely nid dem.

i've wasted 2 whole daes.
slacking.
shldn't i b studying?
wads happening?
wads happening?

fer e whole aftnoon.
i haf been sitting in front of e com.
staring at all those pics.
reali alot alot.
see until i gong.
lols!

sometyms its gud to b less pretty.
to b less handsome.
don u all think so?
so handsome so pretty but no character got wad use?

my younger bro is one handsome chap.
a very gud example.
im not saeing dat he got no character.
but all he does is go sch.
n not care bout sch work.
but care bout gers.

everydae tok on fone until middle of e nite.
change ger lyk change shirt lidat.
everydae stay in sch don cum hm.
jus to get e accompany of gers.
tis is crazy.
lols!

school

everyone loves to b protected.
so do i.
n i simply love dat.

i rmb how i was reali taken care of whn i was young.
esp during my pri sch daes.
i was treated lyk a princess.
everything i sae.
ppl wuld abide to me.
n dey do it willingly.

my fren wuld wait fer me at e bus stop every morn w/0 fail.
help me to take my barang barang.
frm e bus stop all e way to sch.
acc me to e bus stop whn its tym to go hm.

food was taken care of.
my fren wuld treat me.
buy food fer me.
i haf quite alot of savings back den.

i stil rmb how kor kor wuld walk so fast on our way to sch.
not waiting fer me.
but he wil stil ask e bus driver to wait for me.
his little sister.
who oways walk so slow.

its until whn i was sec 1.
i feel dat i had no frens.
i was posted to a sch w no ppl i knew.
i felt so alone.
so left out.

even until now.
loneliness sets in.
i don feel dat kind of warmth among ppl ard me anymore.

e feeling is so different.
i truely truely miss pri sch daes.
whn everything was taken care of.

now.
in sch.
im someone who seems to noe everything.
someone who's independent in ppl's eyes.

but somehow.
ppl wuld b stil b afraid dat i might get lost in a crowded place.
ppl wuld stil hold my hand whn i cross e road.

isnt it tym fer me to grow up?

home

kor kor use to take food fer me whn eating.
ppl who dunno wil think dat he's my bf.
its oni until now dat he got gf.
dat he stop doing all tis.

ah di wuld peel prawn fer me.
even until now.

papa wuld drive me to sch.
not even groaning.
not even complaining.

mama wuld stil cal if i go home late.
she scolds.
she nags.
but i noe it all.
she mean well.

tho i was train to do hsehold chores since young.
n am stil doing it now.
i get scolding.
get beating.

i once felt so terrible dat i feel lyk dying.
but i noe.
whn im home.
im someone w attitude.
i throw tantrum.

unlike in sch.
i kip all sorrows to myself.
no matter how angry how fustrated.
i don vent my anger.

its tym fer me not to take my family fer granted.
dey deserve smth better i guess.
i don throw tanrum anymore.
i noe wad i shld do n wad i shld not.

but is tis enuff?
shld'nt i b more sensible n independent?
as in to b able to go out dere n do smth fer others?

no nite cycling.
no pulau ubin trip.
no overnite staying.
not even trips dat wil help save ppl.
fer me to gain experience.

im stil a small little ger in my parents eyes.
aft so many yrs.
or isit e same fer everyone?
but shldnt i grow up?
tho i don feel lyk growing up.

i dunno wad im toking.
wad im typing.
but ok.
wadeva.

ndp 06 pics





















steamboat pics



dat huge pile of clothes



cam's scary leg



1st adier duty

highlights

tis is gonna b a ultra long entry.
if u don lyk it den close tis page as u wish.
n shoo frm here.

one

went to mit mummy, ah di, ah yi n ah josh at imm aft sch todae.
den hor.
wah.
reali jian gui lo.

mummy gave us $10 to buy food.
den we were sitting at imm LJS.
i put e $ on ah di's shoulder.
den it ming ming was stil dere la.
den e nxt moment it was gone.

i noe its dumb to left it on his shoulder.
but.
even if i fell to e floor.
it wil b on e floor n not gone.
which toopid person go n take it?
tsk tsk.

den was ask to mop e floor.
ah di was all e fans.
n ah kor sweep e floor.
lols.
poor us.

two

fer 2 consequetive daes.
cant wake up fer sch lo.
reali wth.
but i oni woke up late la.
stil went fer lesson.

1st tym in poly lidat eh.
tho sec got b4 la.
hahas.

den one of e daes.
think too gan jiong.
den hor i iron my shirt until e iron drop n divide into 2 lo.
dunno how it happen la.
n e iron is super heavy kind.
metal de.
cannot imagine if it land on my leg.

thnk god it didnt.

three

BCLS pract test todae.
pass all 5 sections on e 1st attempt.
happy happy.
tis is so much diff as compared to 1st aider course la.
but i stil made it. =)
tho e 1 man CPR i think not very gud.

four

i finali cut my hair aft saeing fer so long.
lols!
wanted to go chinatown cut wan.
but no tym n whn got tym den not open.
so shit lo.

end up cut at chpt 2.
not bad la.
e hairdresser kip toking to me.
lols.
$26.25
quite x actuali.

n its lyk same hairstyle.
oni dat e length shorter oni.
see infront oso lyk neva cut lidat.
but aiya.
nvm la.

five

janice bdae.
went teo heng to celebrate janice bdae.
me n dumb dumb go buy cake.
bought frm jack's place.
tot it wil b x.
but stil price stil reasonable.

strawberry choc cake.
niceee.
but fattening la.
sinful lehs.
hahas.

den had tis stone dining dinner.
e food is cook on stone wan.
1 person $10+.
not very nice i think.
cos lyk no taste wan e food.

i had catch of e ocean.
its fish la.
den i think i dunno how to cook.
alot of it stick to e stone.
whn actuali e person sae aft cooking e fish wil b crispy.
lols!

all of dem (janice, amy, nana, sk) sae dey wun step into e place again.
but actuali i think hai hao la.
not dat bad.
don so fast condemn it la.
hahas.

den walk along dat street of kallang.
head to suntec aft dat.
we went arcade.

played car racing.
im e last lo.
start car oni jiu crash liao.
hahas.
i think im oni meant to b drive by ppl la.
bleh.
heeeeeee. =D

den play tis drum thing w him.
wah.
hit until tired man.
see ppl play got red n blue n e middle wan lyk so fun.
den we play hor oni middle wan leh.
most prob cos i choose easy.
hahas.

went to look at e turn turn thing.
den jiu head home liao.



six

eve of national dae.
janice, shu lay n him went teo heng again lo.
den i don wan go.
hahas.

so met amy, hui shan, derek, nana, jeanie at marina.
lyk so weird la.
cos everytym w dem.
he wil b dere w me.
but not tis tym.
but ok la.
didnt felt left out. =)

waited ultra long fer e bus to cum la.
n alot alot of ppl.
luckily dey took cab frm teo heng.
den go book place.
if not i think wil b packed.

n he bought 9 cans of drinks frm teo heng.
cos $1.
farnie la.
typical sporean man. =X
hahas.

main thing is e fireworks.
super nice.
at least i thinkk it is.
hahas.
den took many pics.

n oso dey gif janice her bdae present.
i think dey r a bunch of reali gud frens la.
so envy.
hmm.

dey sew a huge pillow w janice name on it.
n w a furry furry heart i think.
den got dusbin.
dey ownself decorate.
plus a super long 'photo flim' .
lyk those take pic den e roll of thing wan.
w their pics inside.
tho look abit longitudinal.
but its stil nice la. =)

aft eating until we reach tanjong pagar mrt.
derek was lyk taking pics of us all e way la.
sure alot of candid shot.
hahas.
n he's so farnie.
esp on e bus.
whn he act as e bus driver.

i reach home lyk aft 12?
1st tym 7th mth aft 12 go home i think.
lols!





seven

national dae!
mummy, papa, jie, him n me sit tgt.
den ah kor, his gf n her mummy sit another section.

papa is so cute la.
hahas.
so very enthu lo.
whn u sudden look n him u can see him do all sorts of farnie things.
stil put tattoo on his face lo.
so sporting.
hahas.

tis yr parade wad nice.
nice n stil nice.
hahas.
mayb cos of who i watch w.
3 most catogeries of impt ppl in my life.
papa mama.
ng suting adna.
sim seng kwang.
=D

reali had fun.
n dere's tis small little girl in front of us.
she very cute lo.
den we gif her sweets.
she stil wan to gif us back muffin eh.
hahas.

fireworks was so amazing.
dunno how e person manage to cum up w such entertaining fireworks.
haa.

a pity tis wil b e last yr at kallang liao.
think e atmosphere dere is nice la.
w so many ppl.
tho i don reali lyk e squeezing part whn walking back to mrt aft everything.

aft dat stil went lavander to eat.
e pancake quite nice.
den papa send him home.
den send jie home.
den went to fetch ah di.
go da you.
den go home.

a long but enjoyable dae.
one of my happiest dae perhaps.

happy bdae spore.
im proud to b part of it.
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eight

last project.
handed in todae.
im free frm project.
yipees!!!!!!

nine

exams r cuming.
which is =(
but i don haf a choice.
next wk studying break.
hopefully im disciplined enuff to study.

ten

attachment shedule is out.
as in posted to which wad.
rooster not out yet.

those previously in NUH is now posted to TTSH.
which means all my working mates is no longer in e same hos as me.
every attachment i had dem.
at least i look 4ward to working w dem.

but now.
not anymore.
i think im gonna dread attachment.
4 wks.
1 mth.
how am i gonna survive?

but luckily i stil got jon.
tho sometyms he reali crap alot.
n make me very irritated la.

mayb i rely too much on ppl.
its too much of a routine.
attchment fer 1 n a half yrs.
it has been a same ppl ard me.
but its gonna b real diff tis tym.

new collegues.
new ppl i wil mit.
probably gud ones.
or probably bad ones.
i neva noe.

veron wil stay strong.
thru out all her career life.
yes i wil.
im a strong ger.

extras

stil got alot of pics.
some in my hp.
some in jie's hp.
some in his hp.
some in his digital cam.

all haven send yet.
i r lazy to upload oso.
hahas.

look out fer more pics in e nxt entry.
=))

veronica, when you reveal your true colors in love, you're a Connected Partner

You are the kind of jovial people-person who can brighten almost anyone's day. You take great enjoyment in having deep emotional attachments; that's true both in love, as well as with your friends and family. As a result, when it comes to romance, you're likely to seek out a partner you can feel completely bonded to and share your innermost thoughts with. Once you've found this special someone, you'll likely keep them happy with your caring nature and sometimes-goofy sense of humor.

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happy 41st birthday singapore!
somehow i feel so proud to b a sporean.
hahas. =)

e ndp was fabalous.
fireworks was ultra-ly nice.
w papa mama.
w her.
w him.
it even nicer.

im a happy ger.

is spore's population getting larger overnite?
LOL.

seems lyk since sat.
e crowd surrounding me is so huge.
so overwhelming.
so scary.

its oni whn u grow up.
den u realise how truely complicated is e world.
diff kinds of ppl all over.

i dunno wad happen.
but suddenly dere seems to b an over production of tear gland in me.
reali sudden.

i dunno wads bothering me.
i dunno wads running in my mind.
i dunno how to put it into words.

perhaps oni my heart noes it all.
so deep down dat i don even noe.

y do i haf such lousy brain n mind.
haish.
=(

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

life is all bout risk.
but who dare take e risk n do everything at a risk?
i don.

some sae things dat dat wish dey hadnt sae.
some wish to sae smth but said nth.
see e difference?

i guess e most impt things r e hardest things to sae.
wanted so much to.
but things obstruct e saeing process.

my heart decide whom i lyk n whom i doesnt.
i cant tel my heart wad to do.
it does it on its own.
i love u.

e tot of not being able to see someone e nxt dae n 4eva.
is reali reali scary.

be it ur close frens.
ur love ones.
ur family.
ur classmates.
even ur hi - bye fren.

all i can do is jus pray.
n hope nth goes wrong fer her.

it reali sets me thinking.
losing someone can b a thing dat happen jus in a spilt sec.
u reali neva noe.
reali neva.

treasuring someone shld b a beautiful thing.
a thing frm within.
frm e heart.

i don wanna lose smth.

WHAT THE HELL

freak man.
aft so many daes.
whn i actuali got e determination n mood to start my NR project.
microsoft word played me out.

there is insufficient memory or disk space.
word cannot display e requested fonts.
bloody hell man.
spoil my mood la.

went to watch dragon tiger gate w him aft sch.
den his contact lens drop in e cinema.
omg la.

end up its inside his hp pouch lo.
i dunno how it ended up dere oso.
so farnie man.
n i think wearing contacts is so errrrr la.
i stare n figure e contacts fer dunno how long la.
pretty interesting.

cos whn e contacts dry up.
it reali reali don look lyk contacts.
n its damn fragile.
whn i bent it, it jus break.

n i tot its suppose to b rubber kind.
but turn out to b crispy kind.
means bent oni break.
n stil got e sound n effect can.
lols.

i reali cannot imagine wearing contacts.
its so freaking scary.

tis morn whn i was on e train.
opp was a guy w tattoo.
tattoo kind of turn me off la.
but i think tis guy reali got charm la.

beside him was a mother n a baby.
he damn lyk baby can.
seeing e cheerful look whn he play w e baby.
n he's reali 1 patient person.
reali wah.

n i oso heard him sae.
his bro's son pass away cos of heart problem.
n its oni a baby la.
went thru 3 operation.
how sad.
hais.

n whn he gave up tis seat to someone.
not very old lady tho.
i can alreadi sense.
sense that he's a nice man.
a reali nice wan.

tattoo may jus b a form of body art to him.
dats y.
neva judge 1 frm his/her appearance.
looks can b very deceiving.