9.20.2006
2 more days to go.im so tired.
so sick of attachment alreadi.
tho it kind of kip my hols occupied.
imagine 7 wks.
i wun even noe wad to do la.
at least in e hos.
i do smth useful.
((:
ever since tis wk.
im changed to team B.
n since e starting of tis wk.
physchiatric patients.
i got 1 auntie frm IMH.
n she subutex abuser.
1st dae i super scare of her la.
cos she got tatoo all over.
n her eyebrow is tatoo wan.
look scary.
but i found her ok aft dat.
but her husband.
don reali lyk eh.
oso tatoo all over de.
den dat dae he sae cute ger.
don wanna ans him.
but i was e oni 1 in e cubicle la.
so no choice.
aft dat i ask him wad he wan.
den culdnt understand wad he sae la.
den his wife which is e patient.
sae no la.
he sae u very cute wan to tok to u.
lols!
den i jus orh.
den he sae wan treat me eat.
i jus sae its ok. i've eaten.
den he stil continue w i send u home.
wah.
bth can.
den i sae orh dun nid.
den i jus walk off.
eee.
so scary.
den todae.
whn i went fer work.
cos aftnoon shift.
den while walking to e bustop.
dere's tis uncle.
sicko wan la.
he was at e bus stop.
i nid to walk pass e bus stop to cross e rood.
den he whistled at me.
n smiled at me.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
den todae at work.
i've got a new patient.
drug overdose.
sexually abuse by husband.
child abuse by mother in law.
its lyk wth la.
den karen told me she was agitated in e morn.
n was given sadative.
so scary.
den whn i acc her to e toilet.
e toilet cubicle is kind if small.
den she ask me if dere's someone dere.
in dat same toilet cubicle.
scare e hell out of me man.
i was lyk err. no.
den she jus sae ok nvm.
aft dat she told me she can see alot of ppl ard her.
but she told me she feel so lonely.
reali feel sad fer her la.
but at e same tym scare oso.
she asked to put down e cord side.
but i dare not.
cos SN oso sae not to.
n scare dat she wil do silly things.
fone ring.
SN: ur husband sae he got smth urgent to speak to u.
aft she hang up.
SN: so wad ur husband sae?
pt: nth.
SN: so is he bringing ur children over?
pt: no. if he don i think i wil b too late.
pt: gif me an injection dat can let me die.
i feel so sad upon hearing la.
haiss.
one more episode.
pt: i don understand y i haf to stay here.
SN: its fer ur own safety.
pt: i perfectly alright.
SN: its to make sure u r not harmed.
pt: im ok. i wan to go home.
SN: even if u wan u oso haf to speak to e doc.
pt: den get e doc to cum now.
SN: dey r alreadi off duty.
pt: i don care i wan to go home.
dunno how to console her.
afraid i might sae e wrong things.
hope her freaking husband jus leave her alone.
dunno y dere's such inhuman ppl exsist.
does sexual needs reali dat impt?
does it reali lead one to bcum so inhuman?
if dats so wads e point?
i don understand.