9.26.2006
i think i've got serious attitude prob ehs.esp towards my family.
w frens i wun.
no matter wad others do.
i wil tolerate.
even if it reali piss me off.
i will jus shut up.
but whn im home.
i jus sae wad i wan.
voice out wad i think.
do wad i wan.
scream at whoever i wan.
at least dere's tym whn i let out my anger.
or i think i wil go bonkers.
but.
isit fair to dem?
esp mummy n ah di.
tis few days hasnt been toking nicely to mummy.
oways throwing temper.
n rising my voice whn i tok to her.
n whn she trys to tok nicely to me.
most of e tym i stil gif her e cold shoulder.
n todae.
dunno y got kinda piss of w ah di.
actuali he did nth wrong la.
he asked me to scoop rice.
den its lyk i jus finish mopping e floor n finish bathing.
cant he jus scoop himself.
n whn he came into my rm.
wanting to borrow mp3 frm me.
dunno y i got super pissed.
yell at him saeing how irritating he was.
n ignoring him aft dat.
den mummy came in.
to tok nicely to me.
but i practically ignored her.
n didnt tok so nicely.
ah di jus came into my rm.
w a thumbdrive n asked nicely fer his pics.
he oways borrow things n don wanna sae wad is it fer.
n dat reali piss me off.
i don mean to tok tis way.
i don mean to yell at dem.
i don mean to throw my temper.
but i dunno y it happen tis way.
mayb its e PMS syndrome.
lols.
or mayb i noe.
here at home.
dey wil stil b dere even whn i do awful stuffs.
mayb dey r e ones who reali understand me.
at least a little more than outsiders do.
sorry.