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ARGH !!!!!!
toopid com.
giving me hell lots of prob.
esp whn im suppose to enjoy life whn exams r over.
i cant access to e internet for dunno wad reason.
WTH.

hopefully some miracle happens.
n my com wil start functioning normally again.
or mayb kor kor wil find a way to fix it fer me.
actuali dere's internet connection lo.
but dunno y my com cant.

EXAMS R OVER. ((:
last paper was really a killer.
esp e MCQs.
i might die at e last paper.
but who cares.
wait til e results r out.

yest aft our last paper went ms lee's condo fer class outing.
she book a funtion room dere n we jus go dere n chill.
e place's so nice la.
ms lee's sister, brother, niece, nephew all joined us.
superly family.

watching i not toopid 2 for e 2nd tym stil didnt bore me.
stil got e same feeling as e 1st tym i watched it.
nice nice.
touching.
whn was e last tym u actuali compliment someone?
family = daddy mummy i love u.
so cool.
lame man.
wadeva.
hahas.

planned to go swimming todae.
but luckily we neva la.
rain lyk hell.
so went imm w cam instead.

was stuck in e rain again whn i was on e way home la.
waited quite some tym at e bus stop.
luckily manage to cum back in tym to catch superstar.
lols!

actuali no com stil can survive.
cos i've got so much to do.
lols!
but i seriously hope dat my com will b ok soon.
i miss those daes online yet doing nth.

ps: having to use kor kor's com is so not use to it.

last paper is oways a killer.
reason due to looking 4ward to enjoying e post exam period.
plus tml's paper is hell lots of info.
n i dunno wad e hell im studying.

dere's stil so much stuffs to cover.
9 chpts n i oni lyk covered 3 chpts oni.
really feel lyk jus sitting in front of e com til im dead tired.
than having to face dat huge pile of lecture notes.

n dat 9 chpts is sub divided into 2 diff modules.
which means i nid badly fer a seperate brain.
but anw i don think i can finish studying la.
prepared to retake.

someone told me.
y go itno a r/s dat wil not last at tis age whn u can devote ur efforts into other more meaningful things.
it sets me thinking.

does it mean dat e person is not worth all ur effort?
w tis thinking it might mean u're letting go of a very precious chance dat might not b here again.
n y b so determine whn u actuali love her?
don restrictions make u feel suffocated?

but i understand wad he means la.
as long as regrets don occur.
all e best fer u. ((:

pls physco my brain into focusing on e lecture notes.
n continuing studying b4 i regrets on my actions.
cant wait fer e moment whn dat 1 hr past.
whn exams paper r collected.
whn i can enjoy.
tho dere's assgnment n projects cuming up. )):

study.
study.
study.
mug.
mug.
mug.
ARGH!!

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surprisingly i studied faster than i expected.
but hopefully all e stuffs go rite into my brain as well.
or else tml wil b another wan dan dae.
*cross fingers*

i cant wait fer exam to end.
dere's so much stuffs dat i wanna do.

i feel fat la.
exercise is needed aft e exams.

wads e definition of "i study finish alr" ?
i think it varies.

some may think dat a few hrs of hard work wil b able to complete all e stuffs.
some may think dat studying finish is easy n dey can even study more than once.
some may nid a few daes to complete all e stuffs.
some take less than half a dae.

to me.
i think dat every exam i neva study finish b4.
jus feel dat dere's so much to cover.
wanting to reali study finish w every single detail so not easy at all.

almost half of nss 3 done.
way to go! =D

i think i got e tendency to blog everytym i online.
esp recently whn exams r taking place.
a short entry wil do.
it somehow satisfy me.

phews`
2 papers down.

i think PAS paper stil alrite.
passing is not a prob.
but definitely wun b able to get distinction kind oso la.

den NSL was kinda gone case.
reali neva study.
neva study at home.
neva study during break.
most of e mcq n true or false qns is lyk tigam de lo.
but shld b able to pass la.

break tym met up w e RCHN ppl.
finally draw our mate whom we r going to get xmas gift fer.
was so excited la.
dunno who drawed mine.
n e person dat i draw i think superly diff to buy.
but stil wil use my heart to go search fer e rite present. ((:

rules of e exhanging of xmas present:
1. no more than $5.
2. can oni b one item.
3. mus b at least $4.50.
4. include receipt as prove.
5. if present is eg. $4.90 inlcude e 10cent whn wrapping e present.
6. kip it a secret on who u buying e present fer til e dae of exchanging.
7. upon exchanging, verbalise on y u choose dat gift fer dat person.
8. e present mus b agreed upon by others dat it is e rite gift fer dat person.
9. jus play n enjoy!

cant wait fer e day to come.
wonder who wil buy fer me n wad is it.
n its oso tym fer me to crack my brain to decide wad to buy.
n think of all sorts of crappy reasons n y i buy it.
hahas!

enuff of excitement.
nss 3 paper tml.
kylie was collecting e papers todae n she said smth whn we walk pass.
"tml u all die". 0.0
meaning tml's paper might b a killer.

mug.
mug.
mug.
*cam asked me to use cup instead*
lols!

many many tons n tons of lucks fer tml paper.
tho i've alr finish studying.
but somehow stil feel unprepared.
dunno wads cuming out but hopefully its smth dat my brain can rmb.

2 paper tml.
PAS.
NSL.

wishing fer a larger n seperate brain.
larger brain so dat i can store more info.
seperate brain so dat info of diff modules wil not b mixed up.

somehow i feel dat mummy is superly irritating n noisy during my exam period.
she oways loves to cal me fer no apparent reason n make me do stuffs.
which makes me feel irritated la.
but ah di saes im equally irritating.
dunno if its true.
but oh well who cares.
wadeva.

i've been online fer e 3rd tym todae alr.
everytym i rest my brain i wuld tend to online.
even if it means jus fer less than half an hr.
abit redundant sometyms but aiya jus tempted la.
lols!

again.
TONS N TONS OF LUCKS.
N HOPEFULLY MY BRAIN REMAIN GOOD BY STORING ALL E INFO IN FULL PIECE N NOT BITS N PIECES.
((:

ps: exactly 1 more mth to my bdae. =D

regrets.
regrets.
BIG regrets.

shldnt haf went out w mummy aunty n grandma todae la.
wasted 11hrs of my tym at IMM.
big fat 11hrs can.
imagine how much stuffs i can do within dat 11hrs.

n i reali don lyk it whn mummy oni thinks of herself.
told her i wanted to go home n study.
but yet stil reach home oni at 10pm.
she saes dat i can study late tonite n wake up early tml to study.
how easily said.
she's not e one studying.

n ppl's stepping on my new white shoe make me even more piss la.
but dat choc cake frm secret receipe b4 i went home did help a little.
its yummilious.
but definitely sinful to e max.
n my little cousins did make my dae a little better.

hayley n me.

naughty little one. hahas.

sister look alike.

cousins!

twist! =D

heavy ashley.

piggy back. =)

MUGGING KILLS MY PRECIOUS BRAIN CELLS !!

mugging.
mugging.
mugging.

tml wil b another dae less to mug.
didnt wan to go but feel dat i haf to.
going IMM w mummy, aunty n grandma.
according to mummy.
grandma saes its been sometym she saw us.
*mummy exaggerates most of e tym. lols*

seems lyk everyone is reali studying hard.
even those dat don use to mug hard in e past.
tis shows e diff between yr 1 n yr 2 students.

actuali im stil not tired.
but brain culd absorb no more.
so im going to bed to rest my mind.
rest my eye frm all those lecture notes.

ppl who r mugging.
study hard!
xian ku hou tian.
hard work wil pays off.
((:

how great.
supposingly to b an 'extra' dae fer us to study.
but yet i slept thru almost half e dae.

slept b4 1am yest n mummy woke me up at 11am todae.
aft which went to mit my aunty to fetch my cousin.
n den we went central to eat.
spend quite a long tym under a blk cos wasnt able to cross over due to dat BIG rain.

reach home oni at 1pm.
n den off to bed i went.
n woke up oni at 530pm.
oh man.
wad a pig i am.

n ta da!
im here online.
think i'll probably die staring at my exam papers.

i forgot to mention dat DERE'S NO SCH TML !!
sch of health sci said mon was our papers.
dats y tml we don haf to go to sch.
its a dae which allow us more tym to study.

whn i cum to noe of it.
i was thinking wah seh.
so considerate n gud ehs.
hahas.

den it was actuali oso cos dey hafing staff retreat tml la.
sae until so nice.
an extra dae fer us to study.
hahas.

tml shall b my sleep late late dae.
been long since i've done dat.
((:

standing at a place fer 30mins wil allow u to see lots of stuffs.
u can actuali see how diff ppl carry demselves.
how a quarrel can occur jus lidat.
its amazing.

so much haf been happening everydae.
n some may b jus rite beside us.
but yet we neva took notice.
its oni whn u pay dat special attention to it den u wil noe wad im saying.

nsl pract exam was a hell of shit todae.
utterly disappointed in myself la.
dunno wads w me.
i 4get quite a num of stuffs.

tis goes to show how unprepared i am.
n it oso shows how much i prefer skills w/o people being dere.
lyk todae lyn was my pt.
perhaphs knowing dat she's someone im close w wil make me less nervous.
but e stuffs in my brain dissapear as equally.

its not dat lyn is not a gud pt la.
jus dat im not use to hafing ppl seeing my do skills.
esp during exam.
i don feel at ease.

aww.
wadeva.
perhaphs all tis r jus excuses fer myself fer not performing well todae.
tho i noe i pass.
but i noe i can do better.

anw, its over la.
mayb e theory wil help.
i might do better. ((:

e rain might b of some help.
it might makes me feel more relax.
but its way to big fer me to walk.

its oways gud to haf someone close staying close to u.
nobody's home whn dat heavy downpour occur.
luckily my aunty came to rescue.
called her n she came down to pick me.
thnks ah yi. =D

upon reaching home.
knowing ah prince is stil dere fer me aft a stressful dae makes me feel great.
plus an ice cream frm e fridge makes me much better.

nobody's online.
perhaps all studying.
i dunno wads w me.
cant i jus get my eyes of e com n get down to serious work.
exams is lyk less than 1 wk away.

had mac fer breakfast n lunch cum dinner todae.
think i gonna frow fat if tis carries on.
shop ard clementi fer lyk 3 hrs todae.
plus lyn went fer threading.

aft which i went jp on my own.
seems lyk i've been going to jp on my own very often recently.
lols!
spent $11.85 at popular.
dunno wad e hell i buy la.
cost me so much.

it was flooding n raining superly heavy whn i got out of jp.
luckily ah di was at home.
ask me to fetch me frm e bus stop.
reached home, bath.
n here i am.
stucked in front of e com fer more than 1 hr alr.
but yet w nth done.

can someone jus kindly motivate me to study?
or i think i wil die.
im gonna flunk lyk nobody's business fer common test.

im looking forward to attachment.
im looking forward to xmas.
im looking forward to my bdae oni of dere's smth.

difference between ang mos n asians

to me.
wadeva e ang mos do.
dey r oways so filled w sincerity.
its cong nei xing biao da chu lai de.
even their hugs n kisses appear so heartwarming.
n it reali touches my heart n make me wanna tear.

esp tis particular ang mo.
he was holding a bouquet of very beautiful n lovely flowers.
waiting longingly for someone.
my 1st tot was mus b waiting fer girlfren.

aft so long.
e person dat he was so looking 4ward to was actuali his wife.
tgt w his 2 kids.
i was lyk WOW.
i tot he was someone who was in those relationship.
giving flowers to make their girlfren happy kind.
but i was wrong.

i reali amazed me.
2 kids.
meaning its mus be quite some tym since dey married.
but dey r stil so loving n appear as if dey were one who was stil in their honey moon period of a r/s.
how envy.

i think in asian country esp spore.
u wil neva see tis kind of situation.
e most i saw was oni a kiss.
or a hug fer e child.
but it doesnt appear cong nei xing biao da chu lai kind.
sometyms seeing 2 asian hug n kiss in public i think its kinda not very nice n er xing but neva fer e ang mos.

another wan was 2 guy.
a guy waiting fer e other.
of cos dey r not gay or wadeva la.
im sure dey r str.

their hugs.
reali reali showed how buddy dey were.
it was dat kind of closeness dat can oni b expressed by demselve.
i almost teared seeing it la.

n e last wan dat touched me was a mother n son.
e son waiting fer e mother.
i culd actuali see how strong their love for each other was.
she mus b a wonderful mum.
e son even teared upon hugging n kissing her mum.

everything appear so sweet.
so loving.
so real.
not smth which i can see in asians.
mayb i shld consider marrying an ang mo huh?
hahas.

i've happily paid my sleep debt yest.
reached home at 6pm.
i think dats 1 of e earliest day i reached home since e whole 5 wks.
n bong!
off to my bed to lala land.
hahas.

n i oni woke up jus now which is 5plus am.
tho in between i kept waking up.
mainly cos of ah prince.
kip cuming up to my bed n disturbing me.
which makes me think dat e debt dat i paid is not enuff.
but well.
jus make do w it.
at least i think it can last me fer quite a few daes.

life's been busy.
projects projects n more projects.
so glad dat we've actually finish all of dem.
except fer e last 1.
a little bit more to go.

aft projects its exam.
aft exam its attachment.
aft attachment its projects again.
n exams again.
plus all e cca events.
busy lyk hell.
wad a cycle im going thru.

flu virus attacked me.
im done w flu fer e 3rd dae alr.
plus block nose.
its superly irritating.

n i've jus finish 1 whole big pack of sour cream n onion potato chips.
yummy.
didnt had dinner last nite.
hungry dao.
n i didnt noe wad to do cos lesson oni starts at 9am.
so EAT.
hahas.

seems to me lyk ppl ard me all turned 18y.o
n had their bdae all celebrated so wonderfully.
40daes more.
wad isit going to b lyk?
hmm.

i don understand how cum tv programs r oways not similar to real life.
take fer example the mortuary and the court.
tv programs r oways so much more exagerating.

anyway wad i wanna sae is the court visit was alrite oni.
abit bored tho.
n wad reali amazed me e is security system.
dey can even spot a nail clipper dat i haf in my pencil box la.
dat shows how powerful spore is despite it being a small country.

a pity dat subordinate courts rarely haf cases between 2 ppl.
its mostly e govt against us, the people.
if i can get another chance to go to e court.
i will wan to watch those WO FAN DUI dat kind.
much more interesting.

yest went east coast for bbq.
ppl get drunk, vomiting.
at 1st was quite bored cos jie was kind of drunk n was slping in e tent.
luckily i culd get well w both her sec n ite frens.
n not to mention her aunty oso.
felt so blend in. =D

ard 4 plus i was so super tired dat i felt as if im not w dem.
my soul seems to run away itself to lala land.
hahas.
but whn i was back n was awake.
i started playing poker again n was super high.
high to e extend dat jie's fren called me loud speaker la.
oh well.

headed home n slept lyk nobody's business.
oni me, chor seong, chen yang, liang teck, gek long n a ger which i dunno her name took e bus n train home.
luckily chen yang was kind enuff to carry e tent fer me all e way to JE.
n papa was kind enuff to fetch my frm JP back home.
thnks so muchie!

slept all e way frm 9am to 5pm.
wohoo~ shiok dao.
but in between mummy was lyk yelling n yelling.
i prefer her to go to work.
leaving the hse a little more quiet n more peaceful.
cos whn she yell u realli don wanna hear how it sounds lyk.
n now she yelling again.
i think e flat is going to colaspe.
lols!

viewed e video on e process of pregnancy in nss lecture dat dae.
it was wow wow n more wow.
not forgetting a loud OUCH as well.
its superly amazing how we came out frm dat tiny hole.
n how wei da a mummy is.

i dunno if i wil b wei da enuff to proceed on til dat phase of life.
bringing a new life into e world.
presenting dat glimspe of total happiness which for 1 moment took over the overwhelming pain.
mummy r reali wonders and r e most brave person in e world.

but its really contradicting to noe we actually noe how wonder life is.
n how we really should treasure every single thing going ard in life.
but yet we humans r stil so not contended and take things for granted.
humans - FAN JIAN.
lols!

stress is running all over me.
relationship.
cca.
studies.
frens.
family.
AAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH !!!

alrite.
enough of crying.
enough of moaning.
enough of slacking.
its tym to wake up n move on w life.

relationship.
tis is smth which cannot b controlled.
but stil i think things r cuming to an end.
n i shld move on.
move on dat journey.
ware e future awaits me.

cca.
i think im obviously not handling it well.
gotta spread out my tym well.
anw its jus e most another 1 more yr.

studies.
been slacking lyk dunno wad.
i think laziness had crawled over me.
n im damn gulity bout it.

projects r lyk shit.
don even noe wad e hell im presenting.
effort to do it was not even dere.
don even haf dat sense of urgency nowadays.
wad e shit.

no more last min work frm now on.
no more delaying of stuffs.
no more extention of online-ing hrs.
no more going out late aft sch.
no more slacking and toking during lesson.
n i seriously mean NO MORE.

frens n family.
guess everything accumulated to being me not on really gud termsw dem.
perhaps its my attitude.
really sorry n thnks fer tolerating w me.

somehow its e wrong path walked.
im awaken.
n now its tym to move my feet to e rite path n continue walking.
walking towards e future.

i see spider web growing.
been weeks since i updated.
so much happened.
both happy daes n miserable ones.

number one
aft APC briefing at NAFA.
while walking back towards bugis.
we saw a grp of aunties n uncles dancing outside OG.
i think its fer fund raising.

den james dared chun hui w $50 to dance w dem.
end up we told james if we all dance he jus got to give $50 to all 13 of us.
n he agreed.
we dance cha cha.
damn fun.
i reali miss dance alot. =(

n so we took e $50 to pizza hut.
spend close to $100.
but oni paid $2+ each fer e whole meal.
yummylicious. =)

i think james wun dare to dare us in e future le.
hahas.
cos NP RCHN is super ON de.
hehes.

number 2
1 particular nite.
i 4gotten ware we went la.
lols!
oni noe we went marina square as a whole big grp.
n end up w me, cam, lyn, brendan, jasmine, yew ming n zi bin going to esplande.
spend almost 2 hrs dere lo.

n wad we did was jus sit dere n tok.
of cos in a special way.
da she tou.
lols!
tho kind of bad.
but enjoyed e luffing process of it.

everyone excluding zi bin went to my hse.
w e intention of staying up late w mahjong n poker cards.
but brendan's dad la.
super wet blanket man.
insist on him going home tho his hse n my hse is lyk ultra far away.
so his dad came to fetch him at ard 3am.

half went to brendan's hse n half stay put at my place.
if not 1 person very ke lian.
hahas.
n we met fer breakfast dat morn.
breakfast = k lunch.
excluding yew ming cos he meeting his fren ltr in e day.

went fer project n jon's hse.
n headed to town again.
but oni w me, cam n brendan left.
den jon n kelvin oso joined us.
went fer movie n had a short talk.

life's been so happening fer dat pass few daes.
tho tired but its so fulfilling.
makes me feel dat i spend my weekend to e fullest.
=D

number three
e break up.
some tot we were a couple dat is loving n sweet.
some tot we wun last.
but wadeva it is.
we ended.

fer some reason.
u initiated e break up.
but u said u regreted.
how contradicting.

i felt sad.
i felt confused.
i felt disappointed.
i felt silly.
i felt empty.

shall not sae more.
mayb u guys may think dat im jus hiding.
jus covering myself up w all e i dunno.
wadeva it is.
at least i think im stil clear of wad im doing.

tis r/s brought me lots of memories.
which im very certain dat i'll kip it w me fer a long period of tym.
perhaps til e dae i vanish frm tis world.

sorry n thnks.

i oways believe dat even if u think or feel dat way.
u don haf to show it out to let ppl noe.
an ending is a beginging of a new start.

number four
went over to jon's place fer swimming todae w cam.
wanted to go gym but was kanna chase out.
cos we didnt had our covered shoes on.
boo!

fer e 1st tym i swam 10laps.
damn breathless n tired can.
i think i've got super lousy respiratory system.
n my arms n now aching lyk mad.

saw tis little boy eden (which is pronounced as ethan).
he's at e age of 5 yrs old.
i think he's super cute n shuai la.
hehes.

he've got very nice tan.
n he can reali swim.
its so nice jus to look at him swim.
hahas.

whn his maid asked him to go home.
he didnt wan to.
me n cam had a tok w him.
he said he didnt wan to go home.
he don lyk to go home.

he's a single child.
n both his parents is working.
whn we finally pursuaded him to go home.
e look on his face.
it hurts me.

dat small innocent sad face.
he wanted so much fer dat comapny.
even if its jus fer another min.
he yearn so much fer e love frm his family.
which i think he didnt had.

we told him we wuld get him to cum down e nxt tym we go over to swim.
n he actuali gave us his hp num.
imagine!
he's oni 5 yrs old.

sometyms i think so wad if u cum frm a rich family.
n yet u don haf e warmth frm ur family.
its kinda sad.

number five
sending my uncle off tml.
he's flying off to phlipines i think.
aft which going east coast park w family n my dog.
fly kites.
looking forward.
((: