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PAS lecture.
whn mr lim was flashing e slide on which topic dat we shld focus on.
he started pressing smth.
n i shouted OEI~ quite loudly.
luckily mr lim didnt ask me anything.
n i was luffing my ass off aft dat.

simply cos i tot he wanted to remove e slide whn i haven even copy it down or not even e least read it yet.
but wad he was actually doing is to put e slide to full screen.
ok how dumb.
but e scenario was really hillarious.

spring test todae was alrite.
any we wasnt quiet during e test la.
150+ students.
she oso cant control us.
n dere was pretty much commotion during e 'test'.

choosen my yr 3 elective le.
stick w DDD.
i know its going to b a hard module to study.
but oh well.
mayb i shld jus work really hard.

fri is a self declare no sch dae. ((:
gonna b a dae out w cam.
n den off to work i go.

cant wait for study break to cum.

ELAHA paper was a big disaster. )):
i look at e qns.
e qns look back at me.
im 99% of failing dat paper.
which consistutes 20% of my total grade for ELAHA.
hais.
blame myself for now studying la.

tml's NSS 4 spring test.
20MCQ.
shld not b a prob.
n i've studied. ((:
ok at least read thru.

small test r all coming up.
nxt wk wil b study break.
n cums e big exam.

i love afternoon naps. =D

NSL pract test was FINALLY over.
phews`
u really neva wan to imagine to b e 1st to take a pract test cos it weakens ur heart.
hahas!

i think i did pretty ok.
but aft everyone finish their patient education.
i tot i didnt really did as well.
cos everyone seems to b good.
n obviously dat makes me feel lousier.
boos`

went down tiong bahru to catch HAPPY BIRTHDAY w cam n dy.
had our movie, dinner n home sweet home.

e movie was nice.
tho oni 1 or 2 part of e movie really gan dong dao wo.
if u were to leave e world, wil u leave in silence or wil u made it known to ur love ones?

hopefully every birthday of mine.
i neva fail to get wishes frm u.
lyk u oways do.
frm then til now. ((:

n dere's so much nice movie cuming up.
i wanna watch !!
i love movies dat can gan dong dao wo.
hahas.

can anyone tel me wad to study for ELAHA?
wad to write for dat freaking 1000words essay whn i noe nuts on how to go bout writing it?
ELAHA really makes my hair turn white frm FAN-ing bout it. )):

Bless myself n those who r having NSL pract test tml TONS AND TONS OF GOOD LUCKS !! =D

KAMBATEH !!

dere's so much to do dat i feel lyk dying.
so much work yet so little tym.
was preparing for my NSL pract e whole dae.
which i dun even noe wad i haf is sufficient anot.

but i did quite alot of reading up on e topic.
bottle feeding.
n i noe so much now dat i feel lyk a mummy.
hahas.

being a parent is not easy.
dere's so much factors to take into considerations.
oh well.
life ahead is neva going to b easy.

going to do up my brochure tml.
n hopefully start on my 1000word essay.
cos i doubt i haf enuff tym to do it on other days.

was talking bout missing piece w kelvin jus now.
guess we both haf a missing piece in life.
he tot he has found his but to know dat it wasnt e right piece.
n neither haf i found mine.

i wan a piece dat can fit in exactly.
nicely.
n not one dat force it way thru to get in.
n neither one dat fit in loosely.
all these jus appear n seems to fit in but dey didnt.

in search of my missing piece.

new blogskin shld comes w new pics huh?
so here goes.

rebonded, dyed hair. tho dere don seems to b any diff la.

wanted to post tis pic dat dae whn dance floor is showed. but smth is wrong w blogger. so yup.

SYF competition w ms laura.

another one.

look so fat la. e outfit is tight fitting plus those thingy wrap ard us. lols.

sec 2/6. i miss tis class. e nottiest but can sae quite bonded class. n everyone stil look so kiddy back den.

projects for tis sem is FINALLY over.
tho final yr project is alr on its way.
its jus so not fair.
we've got FYP n attachment.
while other course can jus simply choose one of it.
ARGHS ~

had sucha tight tym ever since i came back frm attatchment.
it seems lyk i jus had exams.
but its coming AGAIN.
n i hate it.

but yet i don haf a choice.
e oni decison dat i can make is study or not to study.
n e decision is obvious.
tho i dread to do so.

in life,
some things r planned e way it is.
lyk it anot, we stil got to carry on dat way.
things don oways go our way lyk e way we wan it to.

come to think of it.
nursing is actually smth SUPERLY difficult to study.
its not all bout practical.
dere's so much thoery stuffs to focus on.
fail exam = dats it.
u cant b a nurse.

n to think dat many ppl thing nursing is a easy job.
clearing urine n shit is wad we do.
how wrong.

often those who don do well, ppl wil sae ahh.
go apply nursing la.
easiest course to get in.
e most do sai gang oni wad.
AS IF.
we do more than dat.

so do appreciate us. ((:

aww.
NSL pract is making me go crazy.
i hate practs whn its involves others.
as in not jus cher n me.
it makes me 4get wad i wan to sae.
n makes me unable to focus.
i doubt i wil do well. )):

made my choice for posting whn i graduate le.
1. pediatric - i lyk children more than adult.
2. medical - dey sae its e place ware u can learn e most thing whn i pass out.
3. oncology - i think i can get to see n learn alot bout life dere.
wonder ware i wil b posted to whn i graduate.
hmms.

i nid some tym to b alone.
i nid some breathing space.
i nid fresher air.

i hate over hectic lives.
i hate having to make too much decisions.

25 jan: NSS 3 make up lecture 4pm - 6pm
: NSL orthopeadic test

26jan: Sociology project on alternative med

27 n 28 jan (weekend): Prepare for pract test, work on elaha essay

29jan: NSL pract test

30jan: ELAHA exam

31jan: Spring test on psychiatric disorder
: Submit details n topic for yr 3 research project
: Choose yr 3 elective module
: Submit NUH application form

1feb: NSL theory exam

2 feb: Work aft sch
: Submit ELAHA 1000words essay

3 -12 feb: Study break

9feb: Mummy's bdae

10feb: Grandpa's bdae

13feb: NSS 3 exam

14feb: NSS 4 exam
: Valentine's day

16feb: PAS exam

17feb - 18mar: chi new yr
: term break

21 - 23feb: chalet @ aloha

26feb: send zb n cq off @ e airport

19mar - 13apr: attachment at IMH n O&G

back to sch.
wad a tight shedule.
hais.
mouth open widely n pity me huh?

aft project todae, many things came to my mind.
i dunno y i felt dat way.
mayb i shldnt haf.
but i jus cant help it.

i cant help but think dat out project is darn lousy.
not dat e slides dat we did is lousy.
but we r somehow so lack of preparation.
n none seems to care.
main motive of everyone is to jus get e project done n get done w it.

but is tis wad it shld b?
i dunno.
hais.

seeing how other grps presented.
simply jus w every detail of their slides rite dere in their mind.
knowing their info jus rite unlike us.
i felt ashamed.
seeing how ms sabrina somehow got dat disappointed look in her.
i felt diasappointed in myself.

i know we can do better.
we jus aint putting in e effort.
we r plainly jus focusing on e wrong things in life.
we r jus too heck care bout certain things.
to e extend whn ppl can totally don care n did nth regarding e project.

im not trying to pin point anybody.
im putting things as a whole.
even to myself.
i noe i havent been working how i shld.

don tel me im too stressed up.
cos i believe im not.
i jus aint doing things dat i can n shld.
all those r within my limits.
but aint performed out.

come to think of it.
i don even noe e simpliest slightest things.
i jus don haf e genereal knowledge.
n i wonder y.
n dat wad makes me lose out.

i bet lecturers see us as one playful lot.
not knowing wad we r doing.
n getting nowhere in life.
talking in class.
crapping.
talk big.
words but no actions.
skipping lectures.
all tis r probably wad we r known off.

perhaphs not dat bad.
mayb we can b named e best of e worst huh.
BEST OF THE WORST.
how great.

ok.
mayb not we.
mayb i.

milton came to a conclusion for me.

veron wans assurance and she wans action rather than talk cos she believes in happiness.
he oso said he agreed dat gers r hard to please.
but dats wad make guys life interesting.
n seriously guy enjoy pleasing gers.

i dunno if e gers being hard to please makes guy's life interesting part true.
i mean how many guy actually think dat way.
much more going to e extent of enjoying it.
i doubt dere's guys lyk dat anymore.
ok mayb a few rare ones.
n im in search of dat rare gems.

yup.
assurance is wad i nid.
actions is wad i wan to see.
happiness is wad i yearn for.

make me believe in love.

watched DANCE FLOOR jus now.
n i saw ms laura on tv.
my god!
i was lyk WAH.
she super gorgoues n sexy.
plus all those memories of dancing came back to me.

during sec sch daes.
if im not wrong it was sec 3.
hafing our SYF dat yr.
n e sch hired ms laura to teach us.
training was tough.
late nite training in e sch.
long hrs.
but nevertheless it paid off.

i miss dancing.

if only.
it wuld b 5yrs.
5 full long yrs.
but too bad.
its sucha pity.
)):

memories r oways kept.
deep down in dat tiny little heart of mine.
locked up.
neva open.

its not bout waiting.
its not bout tym can prove everything.
its bout whether u r e right one.
its bout whether ppl see us w envy.
its bout whether e love is felt.
its bout whether happiness wil b present.
its bout whether having the right feeling.
its bout tons n tons of things.

gers r a bunch of hard to pls creatures.
whn ppl sae tis dey wil wan dat.
whn ppl sae dat dey wil wan tis.
dey r neva happy w wadeva dats said.

wad is forever.
is it really forever?

prove to me dat its worth it.
prove to me dat it can work out.
prove to me dat dere's stil a glimpse of hope.
prove to me dat dere's smth called forever.

i got my hair done yest.
16.01.07.
make tis date.
cos its e huge bomb in my bank acc. >.<

rebonded - now dat i think really abit wasted cos my hair was actually not curl in e first place. but at e same tym i wan to haf e feel of hoe rebonding feels lyk since i haven even did once in my whole 18yrs of life.

dyed - my white hairs r gone. really gone. ((: its some kind of reddish colour on my hair right now. quite happy w e colour. e oni thing dat im worried for is wuldnt b able to pass e attachment dress code. but for now, who cares. =p

treatment - dere wasnt any specific treatment actually. i guess i comes w rebonding. so yup. at least i can feel e softness of my hair. n dats enuff to make veron happy for quite some tym. ((:

cost - e oni thing dat make my heart ache. it was lyk $170 + $5 (new yr surcharge) for everything. its my 1st tym spending so much on my hair la. tho ppl oways sae dat aft earning mus spend or else u cant even bring it to ur grave. but jus feel a sudden big hole right thru my bank acc. )):

but i've got comment lyk eh.
u look lyk whoever whoever.
no matter wad i did to my hair.
im stil the veronica.
me, myself n i.
n i believe in dat. ((:

finally had e debate todae.
statement: spouse/partner of a person tested positive for HIV shld b informed of their partner's HIV status.
n we're lyk e opposing team.
e statement itself is alr not to our advantage la.
much more i cant even convince myself dat we shld not tel if dat happens.
so yup.
we lost e debate la.

main thing is having to debate is hell scary.
i can assure u its worst than presentation.
esp whn u got nth to rebut.
n whn u get all so nervous dat u forgets every single info.
u really feel lyk finding a hole n hide la.
at least dats e way i felt.

n one particular speaker frm e proposition team makes me all so boiled up n at e same tym makes me wan to luff my ass off la.
im not being reacist here.
but e way she speaks is super qian bian.
n i jus dislike e way she acts whn she's infornt of teachers.
see liao bu shuang la.
tsk tsk.
but ok i mean no harm.
i jus wan to niam.
as it makes me feel better. *grins

open hse starts tml.
new batch of nursing students coming in.
which means in no tym, i'll b in yr 3.
shurgs. i dislike e idea.
PRCP. sounds scary cum horrible.
life ahead, wad isit going to b like?
hmm.

random

1. b4 n aft food can cause an increment of 0.5kg to 0.7kg.
tis is a super turn off thing la. i wonder aft lyk a few hrs wil e weight go back to normal. hahas.

2. veron is feeling so FAT FAT since 2007 started. =(

3. choosen DDD for my yr 3 elective module.

4. chi new yr is coming. ((:

5. exams is super round the corner.

6. hafing to noe dat zb n cq wil b going to HK for a 6mths attachment realli sadden me. )):

7. projects n assignments are neva ending n it can b kinda pissing.

8. i don lyk my hair. its getting all so not smooth n i wan to do smth bout it. but wad?

9. coming attachment it wil b e 1st tym dat jon isnt in e same ward same shift as i do. i dunno if i shld feel happy or sad la.

10. i've stil yet to receive my superly overdue bdae present frm adna ng su ting.

11. i nid more clothes cos im running out of clothes to wear. sch uniforms aint dat bad sometyms.

12. my room is in a mess once again. i nid some tym to really pack it all over again.

13. pimples r popping out for i dunno wad reasons. n i hate it. )):

14. my bag broke in sch n im left w one bag lesser to take. )):

15. we oni noe e RCHN ppl for lyk 6 mths plus but i felt dat i've known dem for yrs. n to think dat zb n cq got to leave us for 6mths. )):

16. im looking forward to chalet. superly big. 4 beds. 4 toilets. WAHH. cant wait.

17. sending zb n cq off on 26 feb. )):

18. old songs r so melodest. ((:

19. do i stil live in e past ware i stil yearn for wad i haf in a past?

20. i love to b loved. ((:

i kept tying n pressing the backspace button.
sometimes its really hard to write down ur thoughts.
its not dat i don wan to.
but simply nth comes out of my mind.

reasons y i cant donate blood.

* im less than 45kg.
* i got e nurse to check n she saes my vein is too thin.
* i've got pretty low blood pressure approximately 100/60.

elaboration.

* only 10% - 12% of blood can b taken frm a person's body or else it might b too big a blow for e person. also, the one taking e blood is considered as commiting a crime.
* 1 pack of blood = at least 300ml.
* so meaning for 10% - 12%, u haf to b at least 45kg to b able to collect at least 300ml of blood.
* dey don collect less than 300ml cos its no point collecting dat small amt.

* ppl w too thin veins wil oso b rejected cos e needle might b way too huge for e vein.
* tis wil in turn lead to bruises and causes complications.
* ppl w small veins r advised to do some hse work or exercise to 'enlarge' e vein b4 u can actually donate.

* u mus haf a blood pressure of at least 100/60 b4 u can donate blood.
* mine is lyk superly borderline.
* low blood pressure can lead to fainting n thus not encouraged to donate.

conclusion.

* most prob i wun b able to donate my blood cos dey cant even find my vein. n even if dey do, i might jus faint due to low blood pressure n dem taking more than 12% of my blood.
* i wan to check my haemoglobin e nxt tym round.
* if i don pass dat round, meaning i failed at all stations.
* at least dat wil make me make me less bu gan yuan n it thus wil convince me dat im really not able to donate my blood.
* actually i wanna donate jus to haf e feel of it n much more i can save 3 lifes. so y not rite?

TSK! TSK! TSK!

in wad circumstances or how can 1 b sure that he or she really loves someone?
how actually is L.O.V.E defined as?

sch has been sucky.
late nites to complete assignments.
n im sure dere's more late nites to get my project done as well.
i nid my sleep badly.

1 wk has alr gone.
4 more wks to final yr exam.
but its jus e starting of sch.
living life in such a fast pace can sometyms b very tiring.

exam tym table is alr out.
1 wk b4 chi new yr = one of those valentine's day.
attachment dates r also confirmed.
starting on e wk of chi new yr.
how unlucky can we get?
having to see either bloody scene of giving birth.
or having to deal w those IMH patients.

im probably stil in e post-xmas n post-new yr mood.
i dread having to attend lectures n tutorials.
i dislike e idea of having to place huge attention span on hearing nagging lecturers speak.
i miss hols. ))):

pon-ing of classes starts on e 2nd dae of sch n continue on e 3rd dae.
feeling all bad.
but culdnt care much.
for im tired.
headaches.
backaches.
block nose.

i lyk tis shop 'madewithlove'.
stuffs dere is lyk WOW.
veron really loves hand made stuffs. ((:

humans r selfish.
dey oni wan e best for demselves.
humans r fake creatures.
dey oways pretend to b somewhat perfect.

life is fragile.
life is short.
dere's no guarantee as to wads going to happen in e nxt sec.
don compare.
don judge.
cos we've got no tym to do so.

HAPPY 2007 TO ALL !!

spend my ending 2006 n starting 2007 w e usual ppl.
camila. pearlyn. zi bin. kelvin. brendan. milton. yew ming.
tis is how colourful my life is w dem. ((:

may everyone be healthy n happy.