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its OFF day today and tomorrow.
pretty weird to have off day on weekdays when attachment is on.
but yeah, its PRCP period.
so everything is different.

yest was training.
today and tomorrow is off day.
fri is training.
which means im away form the ward for FOUR days.
rather happy but hope i dont get too blur when i return to the ward tomorrow.

boyf lied that he was at home yest when he was at NUH.
but well, he was there to surprise me.
cos i was in ultra bad mood the day before.
and so, we visited our friend and grandma.

grandma's condition isnt that good.
BP going low, H/C going high, SP02 going low.
hope things will get better.

had my good share of sleep today.
and boyf bought food to my house for me and accompanied me the whole day.
though he sucks at folding clothes and only good at sleeping.
its still nice of him to come over. (:

my super single bed is here today!
im so happy about it lah.
king koil is having 50% offer that's why i bought it.
a little hard compared to my previous bed.
but definately comfortable and spacious.

boyf is going back for recourse next week.
2 weeks of staying in.
bookouts only on weekends.
no phone calls and messeages until probably at night.
early sleeping time.

and

im on attachment.
no using of handphones during work.
if i happen to work on night shift, will not get to hear from boyf.
working on weekends, off on weekdays.

TELL ME.
how to survive like that?
HUH HUH HUH.
sighssssss.
but im sure we'll make it through. ((:
and army is the best sliming centre ever.

loves!

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now i know how isit like to work like mad without breaks.
shift started at 1230pm.
and i step out of the ward at 10pm.
with no breaks in between and im hungry like shit.

when its time to go home.
the sky is dark.
the wind is strong.
the street is empty.
the stomach is growling.
the leg is tired.
the waiting is long.
the jouney is lonely.
the brain is shut.
the feeling is sucky.

i hate many talks with no actions.
its :(
all i hope for is your care and heart felt words.

Labels: sadness

the ward is still bad.
but wasnt as bad as i thought.
at least i made some NYP friends.
and they are pretty nice.

lee khim is recovering well and most probably going over to TTSH on monday.
grandma is going over to st luke's for further rehab.
im glad they are making good progress.

work is busy.
and im missing meet up with friends again.
now that my day off is so different, i dont know who i can go out with.
sighsssss.
i super dont look forward to night shift cos im the first student in the whole ward to start night shift.
and it seems scary and busy.

i miss nice days with boyf.

Labels: updates

grandma has been admitted to NUH.
she fell AGAIN.
but at least condition stable now.
hope she's getting better.

and im glad that my sec sch fren is recovering pretty fast.
not only that, she's pretty positive towards her condition.
i've got the confident that she can go thru all this.
JIAYOUS. (:

after whatever that happens, i know how fragile life is like.
sometimes it not us that aint careful.
its people around us.
and many times, we cant do anything about it.
we dont have a choice in situation like this.
all we can do is, start treasuring people around us.
dont come to regret.
life is unpredictable.

now that 2 people are admitted to NUH.
im busy with visiting before work, during break and after work.
but im sure its worth while.
may everyone be happy and healthy. (:

and my roster is out alr.
my shift sucks like shit.
starting from next week im working on both weekends.
my weekens are all gone.
my precious days for meet ups and for boyf is now gone.
RARRRR.

my night shift starts the week after next week.
im feeling so sucky about shift work eh.
but i guess i got to learn to like it.
or else i'll continue to feel sucky for 3 whole years.

ying xian,
i know your ward sucks to the max.
not only that, with everything that's happening to you.
and you not being able to take cases.
its pretty hard on you.
but you can always talk to me, like what you did today.
i can always listen to your rant and comfort and curse together with you a little.
and make plans on how to earn big bucks to break our stupid bond.
so, dont give up ok.
JIAYOUS.

people, think positively.
ignore those awful people's talk.
always look on the bright side of life.
ventilate once in a world.
get some tender loving care from your love ones.
and im sure things will be better. (:

smile or frown.
its your choice.

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i know webs are forming.
all thanks to my bro who made my mum all so angry that she confiscated the modemn.
i havent been online for days and i felt so away from the outside world.
so isolated from people ard me.

PRCP sucks totally for me.
its sucking the hell out of me.
sucking away all my smiles and laughter.
putting me into depression mood rencently.

i seriously dont like my ward.
its the worst ward that i've been to throughout my 3 years.
and its like my last and longest attachment.
how suay can i get?

the sister doesnt like us.
she's bias against ngee ann poly student.
the staff there aint very nice.
perhaphs the rudest and inefficient staff i've seen.
everything in the ward is messy.
and i've got no frens in that ward.
i feel so damn freaking lonely.
my preceptor is so unfriendly.
so so so unwillingly to teach.
throwing me to others as if im a ball.

the moment i step into the ward, i see tears forming in my eyes.
i dunno how to describe this kind of feeling.
but its the worst attachment period ever in my life.
and im dreading it so much.

i've rant to many many people bout how much i dislike my ward, the people there.
but still, i dunno why im still feeling so down after all the rant.
sometimes i thought mayb i could say it all out.
but yet, sometimes those pity makes me even more sad.
i dunno how i can explain it but it sucks totally.

anyway, away from PRCP.
im still having cough and flu despite visiting the doc.
the doc is the lousiest doc i've ever since.
antibiotics and meds are completed with nil effect.

been having pretty much meet up recently and im loving it.
cos weekend will soon be burnt.
you know, i really wanna shout HAISSSSSS so damn loudly that its out of my brain.
RARRRRRRRRR.

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